Tears For Friends.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

10:37 PM

1o31 .

aFtEr eVeRyoNe gOt oUt oF tHe hoUsE ; i wAs aLoNe finally ! i cried badly. yeaa. i cried till the eyes were red. i cried till i couldnt take it. i cried so much. i saId MaNy MaNy soRriEs tO o4 ppL aNd i couLdNt coNtRoL wAt i wAs doiNg.. aFtEr My sHoWeR ; i sToPpEd aLl tHosE cRyiNgS aNd wAtChEd tV.. hAd MAC haMbUrgEr FoR diNnEr aNd LazE aRd iNsIdE tHe RooM.. dId soMe pAcKiNgS aNd rEaLisEd i rEaLly NeEd tO tIdY mY rooM.. yEaa. MaybE tMl / tHuRs.. FeLl asLeEp gRadUaLly.. wAs FoRcEd tO wakE uP aT 64o ! ARGHS. sHoWerEd aNd waItEd tiLl tHe cLocK sTrikEd 71o ; tHeN i MadE mY wAy tO sChOoL alone. wAsNt tHiNkiNg iF i wouLd takE tHe saMe bUs wItH him / LoOkiNg FoRwaRd tO sEe him.. i WaNtEd tO takE 19o bUt 975 aRRivEd FiRsT.. i sAw him aT tHe bAcK.. SIGHS. rEaChEd sChOoL ; aNd tHeY toLd mE iM iN baNd o3.. ( the best band ; which i wasnt supposed to be there ) waItEd aNd LeSsoNs sTaRtEd.. saT wItH zHiyiNg aNd soLvE 12 qNs oN cIrcLeS.. tHe rEsT oF tHe tiMe wErE frEe ! WEWE. tHeN wAs pHy.. dId qNs aNd iT wAs sooooooo boRiNg ! WeNt FoR rEcEsS aNd MaNagEd tO reLaX a LiL bIt.. yEaa. coNtiNuEd wItH pHy aNd tHerE`s tEsT oN wEd ! OHMY. gEo pErIoDs ; hAd a pRe-tEsT aNd tHeN dId paIr WoRk.. paIr wItH LiN aNd HizaM wAs rEaL fuNnY mannnn.. HAHA. sooN ; iT wAs 1oo aNd hEaD tO loT o1 tO hAvE luNcH.. LipiNg sAw him eNtEriNg tHe LiBraRy aNd wE foLloWed.. wHeN wE eNtEr tHe LiBraRy ; he caMe oUt.. SIGHS. sTayEd iN tHe LiBraRy aNd atE soMe sWeEtS bRoUgHt eAriLeR.. hEaD hoMe aT aRd 3oo + aNd sHoWerEd.. wAtChEd tV aNd caMe oNliNe.. deLetEd aLl tHe pHoToS iN fReNsTeR aNd rE-upLoaD soMe NeW oNeS.. wHeN i sAw tHe o3 oF tHeM aSkiNg Me tHe saMe qNs ; tears welled up my eyes.. i FeLt LikE kiLliNg MyseLf.. WaNtEd tO dO iT sooooo mUcH.. oFf tHe coM aFtEr hAviNg My diNnEr.. wAtChEd tV aLl tHe WaY tiLl mY sHoW eNdS aNd caMe oNliNe agaiN.. aFtEr tT ; rEpLiEd tEsTi aNd rEaD soMe bLogS.. oFfLiNe aNd wAtChEd tV tiLl 123o..

11o1 .

iTs aNotHeR fReaKiNg NeW moNtH aNd tHe wHoLe MtH iS jUsT pAckEd wItH sChOoL woRk oNly ! i caNt eNjoY tHe sChOoL hoLidaYs tO tHe FuLlEsT !! AHH. bUt HARRY POTTER MoviE wiLl bE oUt iN 16 daYs ! hopE tHosE pLaNs i MadE wItH aNgeLa ; szEhUi wiLl gO oN noRmaLly ! wOkE uP aT aRd 1o3o aNd sTaRtEd wAtChiNg tV aLl tHe WaY tiLl 1245.. tHeN sHoWerEd aNd heLpEd MuM tO soRt oUt tHosE piLeS oF mEsSy biLls.. iT wAs FuN ! tHeN weNt oNliNe aNd suRf tHe NeT tiLl 33o.. wAtChEd soMe pRogRaMmEs aNd atE icE cReaM tO nUmB soMe uNwaNtEd FeEliNgS iNsIdE.. FeLt sooooo borEd wItH tHe tV aNd oNliNe agaiN.. oKaYs ; i do pItY tHe CoM foR haViNg a owNeR likE mE ! dL jay`s NeW soNg.. upLoadEd o1 oF tHe soNg hErE.. aNd hEaRd aNotHeR oNe fRoM szEhUi`s bLog.. hAd diNnEr aNd wAtChEd tHe 7oo pM sHoW.. hAd My sHoWeR aNd caRriEd oN wAtChiNg tV tiLl 95o.. oNliNe aNd cHaTtEd wItH aNgeLa..

i managed to pluck up all my courage and replied her testi. i told her the things i kept inside my heart for weeks and was thinking if i should tell / not tell. i was struggling inside. i couldnt open my mouth to say. all i could do was to type them out instead. hope she wont feel bad / whatever in anyway. i hope she wont. if not ; i will regret telling her all those stuffs. i will regret adding more burden on her. that wasnt my purpose. that wasnt. well ' i just hope that everything will come to an end with a habee ending for everyone. i fear of having these kind of probs again. i will tend to lose control of myself because FRIENDS HOLD A VERY IMPT PLACE IN MY LIFE that no one can understand.

yeaa. im seeing all my friends tml again and i hope things will turn out good. i kinda fear of seeing her. but things will be alright for her till she sess the testi. OMIGOSH. and im catching CELLO with jiawen tml.

anyway ; XINHUI is back tml from her holiday. LALALA ~

im sorry. sorry that i couldnt let you go now.