Saturday, April 30, 2005 7:20 PM
o428 .oh gosh ! i had mixed up aLl the dates. haHa. i lost track. but is this a sign of STRESS ? and i mean REAL stress. haHa ! this shows i`m WORKING HARD.
TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. i hAd a BAD BAD BAD NIGHTMARE. I KILLED SOMEONE. aNd tT soMe oNe wAs cO tHe CoNdUcToR mR lEe ! haHa ! NoT tT i haTe hiM.. bUt dUnNo WhY i dReaMeD oF tHiS kiNd oF sTuPiD sTufFs.. LOLS. -NO OFFENCE ! ITS JUST A DREAM. i toLd My cLaSsMatEs aNd tHeY laUghEd aT mE !hMm ; o4 pErIoDs sTraIgHt oF iBaIdaH lEsSoNs.. hMm ; eNg wE dId LeTtEr CoRrEcTioNs.. aNd gUeSs WaT ?! i wAs sO daMm qUiEt aNd FiNishEd iT uP tHeN i rEaD sToRyBoOk.. haHa ! i`M sO daMm gUaI eH ! UNBELIEVEABLE. waKaHa ! doTs doTs ! tHeN dId FiLiNg.. oMigOsH ! iBaIDaH sPeEd iS sO daMm sLoW tiLl iT maKeS mE bOrEd ! tHeN sS wE wEnT tHrU tHe sBq.. sO maNy ppL dIdNt dO tHeN hAvE tO sTaNd oUtsIdE.. haHa ! iBaIdaH toLd tHeM nOt tO gO oUt bEcaUsE tOo MaNy ppL lE.. i aLsO hAvEnT rEaLly CoMpLetE iT.. bUt i gOt WritE soMe woRdS tHerE aNd sHe tHoUgHt i dId Le.. haHa ! aFtEr tT wAs pHy ; BORED eH ! tHeN gO foR sTupId rEcEsS.. hAiX ! nOwDayS ; i`M eAtiNg bReaKfaSt ; LuNcH aNd diNnEr.. aNd kOrX toLd mE tT i`M sO FAT tiLl i bLoCkEd tHe FaN`s wiNd ! aHhHHh ! WAT AM I GG TO DO ?!! aFtEr rEcEsS wAs a MatHs.. wE gOt bAcK oUr a MatHs PaPeR aNd gUeSs WaT ?! oNly o8 ppL pAsS aNd 31 ppL FaiLeD ! aNd i`M o1 oF tHeM.. i oNly gOt o9/2o eH ! waHaHa ! bUt i dId My bEsT iN cOpyiNg lE.. haHa ! iTs FaTe tHeN jUsT lEt iT bE lOrX.. tHeN cOpiEd dOwN tHosE qNs tT tHe cHeR dO.. wA laU ! i HatE e aNd a MatHs LeSsoNs NoW.. tHe cLaSs oF tHeM fUcKiNg NoIsY aNd i EvErydaY hAvE tO " sHh aNd sHh " ! i DuN waNt dE bEcaUsE i`M sCarEd tT tHeY wiLl HATE mE ! pLuS ; siNcE tHiS wEeK tHe wEd i HaD bEeN taLkiNg LeSsEr aNd LeSsEr.. i DuN kNoW wHy.. jUsT hatE tO taLk mUcH.. i WaNt siLeNcE.. tTs ALL. yEaHs ; kNoW wAt ?! pIg pIg FaMiLy gOt o3 mEmBeRs ChaNgEd a LoT ; a LoT lE. aLl HaTe taLkiNg eTc. haHa ! cOoL rIgHts ? uNitEd tiLl liKe tHiS. haHa ! tHeN wAs rEaDiNg.. wE doNatE soMe MoNeY tO saNdy`s FatHeR cOs hE`s iN hOsPitaL.. hMm ; jIa YoU foR tHeM ! tHeN ; tHeN ; tHeN wAs e MatHs ! bLaHs aNd bLaHs ; wE fiNishEd LeSsoNs ! hOoRaY ! tHeN hAvE luNcH wItH jIa WeN.. wEnT foR eNgLisH rEmEdiaL.. MaRkEd tHe hWk aFtEr tT gO loT oNe aNd gEt My CoRrEcTioN taPe rEfiLl wItH jIa WeN aNd gOt HoMe.. i sHoWerEd aNd dId a MatHs hWk.. oMigOsH ! i o1 qNs aLsO dUnNo HoW tO soLvE ! i FeLt sO tIrEd aNd sLeEpY.. i pUt EvErYtHiNg aSidE aNd WeNt tO sLeEp iNsTeaD oF dOiNg hWk tHeN pRaCtIcE YaNg qiN.. dIdNt hAvE tHe MoOd.. sLePt tiLl 7oo aNd gOt uP.. FeEliNg sO bLuR aNd tIrEd ! hAd diNnEr aNd WaTcHeD tV.. aFtEr tT ; pRaCtIcEd YaNg qiN iN paReNtS rOoM cOs tHeY wAtChiNg tV iN tHe LiViNg.. i sWeAt aNd sWeAt.. haHa ! tHeN aSkEd kOrX hOw tO dO a MatHs ; hE aLsO dUnNo.. tHeN dIdNt dO aNytHiNg aND caMe oNliNe.. cHaTtEd aNd rEaLisEd tT szE hUi`s iN tHe saMe sTatE aS mE ! DuN waNt tO taLk mUcH aNd wE paY aTteNtioN iN cLaSs ! wOopEe ! hI5 gUrX ! tHeN oFfLiNe aNd wAtChEd tV.. WeNt tO sLeEp wItH aIr-CoN ; tHe UsUaL.. hErE ; i WaNt tO tHaNk dUnNo WhO ; wHoM iNvENtEd aIr-CoNs ! iF nOt i`M dEaD ! haHa !
o429 .
wOo~ tHe eNd oF aPriL iS hErE aNd wE sUfFeReD foR o1 oF NO HOLIDAYS aNd HOT WEATHER. haHa ! hMm ; i`M NoT iN a gOoD mOoD siNcE tHe sTaRt oF tHe sChOoL.. i dIdNt kNoW wHy.. wEll ; MaYbE i`M gOiNg tO bE liKe aNgeLa.. BoTtLiNg eVeRytHiNg iNsIdE.. hMm ; a gOoD waY eH ! haHa ! eNg pErIoDs wErE fiRsT.. wE hAvE tO dO coMpO ! oMigOsH ! i hatE coMpO bEcaUsE iBaIdaH aLwaYs gIvE tHosE tOpiCs wErE sO haRd tO wRitE.. iN tHe eNd ; i cHosE tHe oNe oNa tRiP aNd LosT tHe WaY.. haHa ! aNd My CoMpO wAs LiKe cRaPpiNg LiKe tT.. i dIdNt kNoW hOw tO wRitE wEll.. tHeN wAs a MatHs LeSsoNs ! aRgH ! i HatE tHiS lEsSoN ! eVeRyoNe gEts sO fUcKiNg nOisY aNd i tHoUgHt i wAs gOiNg tO LiKe aNd LiKe tHrEe-tWu MorE aNd MorE.. bUt.. haHaHAHA ! No WaY maN ! ovEr mY dEaD bOdY ! i hatE thE cLaSs MorE aS eAcH daY pAssEs.. tHe cLaSs iS fiLlEd wItH fUcKiNg bItcHeS ; fUcKiNg aSshoLeS aNd fUcKiNg iDoiT tEaChErs ! NO ! i shLd saY wItChEs ! yA ; tTs rIgHt ! tHeN wE lEarNt tHe LasT cHaP foR mIdyEaR aNd tHe wHoLe o1 pErIoD ; i dIdNt kNoW wAt i wAs cOpyiNg.. i DUN UNDERSTAND aT aLl ! oH pLeAsE ! CaN wE cHaNgE aNotHeR gOoD cHeR aFtEr tHe MiDyEaRs ?! iF nOt i CaN sEe tT i WoNt bE gOiNg uP tO sEc o4 aNyMorE ! Mt LeSsoNs ; i gOt bAcK mY leTtEr wRiTiNg aNd CoMpO tEsT.. haHa ! My LeTtEr wRiTiNg wAs oUt oF poiNt aNd i oNly gOt o9/2o aNd tHe CoMpO 29/5o.. haHa ! LoUsY aSshoLe MaRkS ! bLaHs aNd bLaHs.. rEcEsS ; dIdNt eAt aNytHiNg.. i toLd yOu i CaN sUrEly gOt oN diEt ! haHa ! i wAs LiKe igNoriNg eVeRytHiNg tT wAs HaPpeNiNg aRd mE.. i waLkEd aLoNe aNd i tYpEd tHesE mEsSagEs iN mY hP.. "ALL I SEE NOW IS MORE HARTED" & "HUMANS JUST SUCKS NON LIVING THING IS FAR MORE BETTER". WeNt bAcK cLaSs aNd hAvE cHeM aNd tHeN e MatHs.. kaLaI caMe oUr cLaSs aNd wE hAvE tO bE "gOoD" sTuDeNtS lAhX.. wE dId a sTupiD sUrVeY oN faMiLy MaTtErS aNd coNtiNuEd tO hAvE lEsSoNs.. i FaStEr dId mY coMpO aNd HaNdEd iN.. sAt aT tHe CaNtEeN aNd sTaRiNg iNtO sPacE.. dIdNt kNoW wHy i dIdNt WaNt tO taLk tO jIa WeN.. tHeN YibiN tHeY aLl caMe oVeR aNd hAd cHaTs wItH uS.. aFtEr tT ; wEnT foR cO aNd pRactIcEd a bIt bEfoRe coMbiNe.. i wAs daMm SUPER sCarEd ! i dIdNt kNoW wHy.. My pLaMs wErE wEt ! aHhhH ! aNgeLa ; WherE aRe yOu ?! wE eNdEd eArLy aNd aFtEr tOdaY`s coMbiNe ; CaN teLl tT Mr LeE wiLl cHoosE tEcK wHyE lE.. sIaNz eH ! FUCK. cHaNgE tHiS aNd tT.. ThiNk vErY fuN hUh ?! IdOiT sChOoL ! paY tHe BaNd coNdUcToR sO hIgH tHeN cO sO loW ! WaT foR tHe FuCk gO hAvE cO tHiS cCa ?! ASSHOLES lOrX ! oFfLiNe aNd WeNt pLayEd yQ.. wAtChEd tV aNd waItEd aNd waItEd FoR mY ljs.. FULL eH.. tHeN wAtChEd FiNishEd tV ; caMe oNlinE aNd cHaTtEd.. hMm ; MuSt SaY a tHosUaNd tHaNkS tO sEr WeE bEcaUsE sHe vErI gOoD.. haHa ! sHe gAvE mE loTs oF aDvIcE.. hMm ; a sEc o2 caN bE moRe MaTUrEd tHaN a sEc o3.. gEez.. haHa ! tHeN cRaPpEd a LoT wItH szE hUi.. oFfLiNe aNd rEaD soMe CoMiC aNd MeSsagE a wHiLe.. tHe MeDiciNe wAs sTaRtiNg tO wOrK.. hAiX.. gOiNg tO xaMs lE tHeN gOd coMe aNd pLaY a FooL oN mE.. FiNe ; FiNe.. FoRgEt aBt iT..
I CANT STAND EVERYTHING ARD ME.
I JUST HATE TALKING AS EACH DAY PASS.
MY AIM TO GO TO SCHOOL IS JUST LESSONS AND LESSONS.
NTH ELSE.
I HATE THOSE NOISE MADE BY THE FUCKING THREE-TWU.
THEY ARE SO NOISY.
I WANT SILENCE.
JUST SILENCE.
GOD ;
DUN TELL ME THIS KIND OF SIMPLE THING YOU ALSO DONT ME TO HAVE ?
YOU DONT LET ME HAVE HAPPINESS ; FRIENDS ;
I DONT MIND.
I REALLY DONT.
BUT WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE THIS ?!!!
I HATE YOU.
ASSHOLE.
FUCK.
CI BAI.
KA NI NA.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. !!!!!!!!!!!!!
o429 .
aFtEr 12 hOuRs aNd 3o MiNs oF sLeEp ; i WoKe uP wItH o2 MeSsagEs FroM LiN bUt No NeEd tO rEpLy lE.. haHa ! NtH oN tV.. sIaNz ! aFtEr tT ; hAvE bReaKfasT aNd gAvE MuM tHe vIdEoCaM mEmoRy CaRd tO bRiNg tO bPp tHe pHoTosHoP aNd dEvEloP tHe pIcS oUt.. ShoWerEd.. MuM usEd fiNishEd coM aNd iT wAs My tUrN.. bLaHs aNd bLaHs.. tHeN oFf aNd wAtChEd vCd aNd tHeN wAtChEd soMe vcDs.. Wa LaU ! pAreNtS rOoM oNe ; CaNt sKiP sO hAvE tO wAtCh aNd wAtCh aLl tHosE pArTs i SaW oN tV lE.. waNtEd tO pRaCticE yQ aFtEr tT bUt wAsNt iN a MOoD tO dO tT.. sO i CoNtiNuEd wAtChiNg tHe vCds oUtsIdE.. sKiPpEd aNd sKiPpEd tiLl tHe RoMaNtIc PaRt tT i MiSsEd.. tiMe`S uP aND hAd tO lEt tHeM wAtChEd zHeN qiNg.. wAtChEd tiLl 63o pM.. tHeY wEnT oUt FoR diNnEr bUt i dIdNt WaNt tO.. sO sTayEd HoMe aLoNe ; HaviNg CraMpS oR sToMacH paiNs i dUnNo wHiCh oNe aNd pLayEd CoM.. upLoAd TaO zHe Ai HeN jIaN daN.. eNjOy ! aNd SMILES. XD
hmm ; in abt few hours time the mth of apr has end. and a new month has begin but i doubt i will have any nice happenings. but more worst stuffs will be coming. just want to study and do well in my mid year. i dont wanna go think of anything else. including where the love i had for you gone to.