Monday, May 02, 2005 10:39 PM
o5o1 .((x its MAY.study hard everyo1 !
yDaY nIgHt aFtEr i bLoggEd ; i FeLt sO tErRibLe aNd WeNt foR a qUiCk sHoWeR.. i FeLt sO coLd yEt sO hoT.. bUt i sTiLl CoVeR mYseLf wItH bLaNkEt aNd oFf tHe FaN aNd CoNtiNuEd wAtChiNg tV iN a HaLf asLeEp sTatE.. FiNaLly My sHoW sTaRtEd ! WeNt tO sLeEp aT 93o.. i CouLdNt sTaNd tHosE paiNs i`M hAviNg.. CraMpS ; hEaDacHe ; FuL ; sLigHt FeVeR.. WTF. aT aRd 9oo ; MuM caMe aNd aSkEd mE iF i WaNt tO gO sEe a DoCtoR bUt i toLd hEr No aNd CoNtiNuEd sLeEpiNg tiLl 1ooo aNd sHoWerEd iMmEdIaTeLy.. wAtChEd tV aNd waItEd FoR mY bReaKfasT.. oH yA ; kNoW wAt ?! haHa ! I LOSE O2 KG ALREADY ! FiNaLly eH ! hOpE tT i wiLl CoNtiNuEd tO gO dOwN.. i toLd MuM aBt iT aNd sHe saId jUsT bEcaUsE i dIdNt eAt FoR aBt o2 DaYs.. haHa ! tHeN hAvE bReaKfAsT.. aFtEr wAtChiNg tV ; i wAtChEd HaI tuN waN liaN reN.. hMm ; iTs sO saD.. tEaRs wErE ruNniNg tOwArDs mE bUt i dIdNt LeT iT fLoW bEcaUsE MuM`s tHeRe.. sO . . CaNnOt lAhX.. aFtEr tT ; caMe oNliNe WhiLe waItiNg FoR mY tUtioN tO sTaRt.. aFtEr tT ; gOiNg tO bPp wItH MuM aNd CoLleCt My pHoToS aNd gEtTiNg SoMe sTuFfs.. aFtEr i oFfLiNe ; i gOt REAL BAD NEWS fRoM mY tUtioN cHeR ! sHe saId sHe WoNt bE tUtoRiNg mE aNyMorE aNd wIshEd mE aLl tHe bEsT iN mY matHs aNd tHe rEaSoN wAs bEcaUsE i wAs sHoWiNg HeR tHosE fUcKiNg aNd sUcKy facEs oF miNe ; aTTitUdEs oF miNe ; No iNtErEsT oF miNe !! aNd tHe MoMeNt i rEaD iT ; tEaRs wErE wElliNg.. tHeN i toLd MuM aBt iT.. tHeN sHe tRiEd caLliNg hEr.. bUt sHe dIdNt aNsWeR tHeM.. aFtEr a WhiLe ; sHe MeSsagEd MuM aNd toLd hEr EvErYtHiNg.. bOtH oF tHeM hAd a 1o MiNs cHaT.. HaLfWaY ; i CouLdNt sTaNd tHosE haPpeNiNgS aNd WeNt tO tHe WaShRooM tO cRy.. bUt i toLd MySeLf tO bE sTroNg.. aNd i wAs giVeN o1 MtH cHaNcE tO iMpRovE mYseLf ! hAd tO pAck My sTuFfS aNd gO tO tUtioN cHeR hOusE aNd HaVe tUtIoN cOs sHe NeEdS tO loOk aFtEr hEr yOuNgEr bRo.. paPa seNt mE tHerE wItH MuM wHo aCcoMpaNy mE uP.. oMigOsH ! tOdaY theN i gOt tO kNoW tT sHe LivEs iN coNdO ! woLaLa ! haHa ! i FeLt a bIt wEiRd bUt gOt usEd tO tHe eNvIroMeNt aFtEr a wHiLe.. aFtEr o2 HoUrS oF tUtoRiNg ; sHe seNt mE tO bPp bY cAr ! haHa ! aNotHeR fiRsT tiMe ! sItTiNg iN tHe CaR sHe dRovE ! waItEd FoR MuM, paPa & kOrX.. i bOugHt a pOcKy tO cHeEr MySeLf uP a LiL.. i gOt tHe pHoToS aNd oH yEaH ; iT sUcKs a LiL.. bLuRy bUt SoMe wErE cLeAr.. kOrX saId My pHoTogRaPhY sKiLls sUcKs ! haHa ! gUeSs sO.. bOugHt a peN aNd NeW coMb.. tHeN wEnT hAvE diNnEr aT tHe SaKuRa FaMiLy rEsTuraNt tHerE.. 68 bUcKs !? oMigOsH ! NoT wOrTh iT maN ! hEaD hoMe aNd rEsT a WhiLe aNd sHoWerEd.. wAtChEd tV tiLl 93o aNd caMe oNliNe.. haHa ! i hAd aNotHeR habEe NeWs ! hE gOt a gUrXfRieNd.. haHa ! yEaHs ; i tHiNk i wiLl CoNgRaTe hiM oNe DaY.. MaYbE oNe FiNe DaY.. aFtEr i kNoW i FeLt My hEaRt cRaCkiNg aNd cRaCkiNg ! i didNt kNeW wHy.. i thought i had let him go since that day i felt my heart empty. maybe the truth is i haven really let him go. the emptiness i felt was just temporary. maybe. from now on ; MAYBE might just be the only word i can use to console myself. to let myself believe what people said to console to me is true. MAYBE plays a big part from now on. from that moment ; my HATRED for god INCREASED. i HATE god for giving me such good presents on the first day of a new month. thanks a lot. i love those gifts. NoW i kNoW tT nO maTtEr HoW maNy i LivE ; oR HoW maNy i waIt ; gOd WoNt bE giViNg mE aNy NicE tHiNgS aNd hE woNt LeT mE gEt MaRriEd bUt LeT mE bE a oLd ugLy wItcH ! i cHaTtEd wItH sEr wEe bUt No MatTeR wAt sHe saId ; i CaN jUsT rEpLy MaYbE aNd NtH eLsE.. i gAvE uP eVeRytHiNg.. MaYbE tHiS wouLd LasT FoR a MoMeNt.. i HaTe eVeRytHiNg tT iS haPpeNiNg ! WHY ?! WhY mUsT gOd tReAt mE liKe tHiS aLl tHe TiMe ?! aM i sUcH a paiN tO yOu ?! yOu TeLl mE ! i WaNt tO sEe YoU !
o5o2 .
hip hip hurray ! a day rest ! wolala ~
1ooo ; i woKe uP aNd bEgiN mY daY aS NtH hAd HaPpEnEd tHe DaY bEforE aNd sHoWerE.. wAtChEd tV aNd hAd MaC paNcakEs FoR bReAkFaSt ! kOrX toLd MuM NoT tO foRgEt tO bRiNg HiM tO tOwN bEcaUsE sHe pRoMisEd HiM yEsTeRdaY ! haHa ! aNd i hEaRd iT aNd i aLsO waNt tO gO ! bUt hAvE tO coMpLeTe My hWk bEforE gOiNg.. wEnT MuM rOoM aNd dO bEcaUsE mY rooM iS bEiNg usEd FoR hEr FaCiaL !! aRgH ! tHeN tHe TabLe qUiTe LoW tHeN tHe cHaIr a bIt hIgH.. hAvE tO beNt tiLl mY hEaD nEaRly dRopPeD ! XP haHa ! LOLS. dO aNd dO tiLl 11o tHeN pRacTicEd a bIt oF yQ.. i GIVE uP lAhX ! sO hARd ! caMe oNliNe.. cHatTeD wItH sEr weE.. i FiNd LiKe shE`s tRyiNg tO cHeEr mE uP wItH laMo sTuFfs aNd i jUsT cArRiEd oN wItH hEr..
-hMm ; wHicH naMe shLd i caLl hEr ? wEll ; MayBe tHiS wiLl dO. sTacE a big THANKS to her. but i guess how many thanks' isnt enough. haHa. she chatted with me due to some probs im facing. those words and sentences she uses ; oh mine. she made me go silence. a fourteen year old gurx is better in solving probs than a fifteen year old me ?! oh gosh. i told her tt. and shes said no age diff. haHa. shes great at this kind of stuff. maybe she can be a lawyer next time. haHa. geez. as time goes by. she let me hear songs ; read a real life thing. haHa. well ; i did pour some probs out. its great talking to her. i kinda like her more. =))
aFtEr i`M doNe wItH aLl tHosE cHaTtiNgS ; i oFf tHe CoM tTs gOiNg tO bE bUrN ! tHeN dRaggEd tHe TiMe ; waHaHa ! iN tHe eNd ; dIdNt WeNt tO tOwN lE.. wAtChEd tV aNd sTuDiEd cHiNesE.. MuM aNd paPa WeNt wEsT maLl iNsTeAd tO sEe soMe toUr sTuFfs.. dIdNt TaG aLoNg.. i WeNt bAcK tO mY tV aNd wHeN
i wonder when i would be able to come online again. xams ; xams are here.