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Sunday, October 25, 2015

11:53 PM

Ugh. Getting too emotional these days. That I just wanna run away to somewhere where there's no one else except me so that I can lock myself up and have a good cry. It feels like I haven't had one for so long.

There seems to be so many reasons to let me cry it all out.... Your sudden departure that still feels so surreal (and it still hurts to know you're no longer here), the feeling of being left out? loneliness? when everyone is busy with their own lives and I'm here alone, the feeling of being so lost, the stupid feelings that I chased away are coming back after you return my texts... UGH. Which is so so so so f wrong. Like seriously, I have no idea how many times I've reprimanded myself cause I know all these are just temporary and unreal. But... sighs..... I really wish we could just off your feelings whenever we feel like....

I feel tired.