Friday, December 29, 2006 7:45 AM
The trip to LV made me wonder many many things that was happening
I felt that I couldnt find a place to stand with the people here
I felt Im losing myself
Or perhaps I had lose myself without realising
Confidence is something I couldnt find in me
I dont know how should I lead my life
I forgotten what is communication
From a girl who has never ending words to say to a girl who now barely speaks more than ten lines a day
I dont know how to make myself feel more fine
I dont know what to do to make my life to become better
I forgotten what is the meaning of fun
I felt my heart aching and screaming for help
I had to bear with those tears that are meant to fall
I forgotten how to keep in touch with the people outside
For Im used to staying in my own world where silence keeps me accompany
I avoid from all sorts of communication
I find that being a mute isnt something bad after all
At least you dont need to speak , you feel less pain
I wonder if this is really the right path created for me
If it is , why do I always get so lost
Its getting harder to pick myself up each time I fall
I couldnt find a helping hand , a listening ear
I feel terrible , so horrible . . .