Sunday, March 26, 2006 12:00 PM
soooooo stucked into this song in my blog ! (:lets sing along.
added some thoughts of mine with brackets.
When I said
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
( xpect those beautiful memories i had with you )
hear me as I'm calling out your name
Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
(you are within my vision )
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me
You and me
we shared a mistery
we were so close
( and i dont want to let you go )
like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way
Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
(you are within my vision )
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me
Fly firefly through the sky
come and play with my desire
I can't wait another night
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o322 .
counting to six more days left ! *cries*
yEaa. jUsT a sHoRt&sMaLl coNfeReNcE ; i gOt tO kNoW soMeoNe sUdDeNly ! LOL. couLdNt sLeEp tiLl 1ooAM aNd i wAs FeeLiNg sooooo tIrEd ! HAHA. bUt aFtEr sEeiNg him ; tHe tIrEdNeSs iN mE wAs goNe teMpoRaRy ! HEHE. *giggles* gOt tO kNoW mIssRiN dIdNt caMe aNd wE wiLl hAvE o2 FrEe pErIoDs bUt i wAsNt tHriLlEd aBt iT iN tHe MoRniNg.. yEaa. hAd eMatHs aNd dId MaNy gRapHs qNs.. qUitE boRiNg aNd weNt FoR pE wHerE wE raN 2.4KM ! EEE. raN haLfWaY tHeN waLkEd aLl tHe WaY bAcK wItH XiNhUi aNd jIaWeN wHo joiNeD uS laTeR ! WEWE. aLsO nEvEr rEcoRd tiMiNg ; luckily ! lala. weNt bAcK aNd gOt cHaNgEd.. tHeN taLkEd aLl tHe WaY.. beFoRe tT ; XiNhUi aNd mE waNtEd tO fIgHt bUt sHe goT cUt wHeN sHe sLiPpEd hEr fiNgErS dowN tHe dooR wHerE a NaiL wAs poiNtiNg oUt ! weNt FoR rEcEsS aNd atE !! yumYUMs. saT aT voId dEcK aNd i sAw him !! HEHE. beFoRe he WeNt uP ; zHiyiNg weNt tO sHoUt " denise want to break with you ! " HA. LOL. weNt bAcK tO cLaSs FoR eNg aNd weNt tO sIt wItH eNg paRtHnEr ! *laughs* wE laUghEd aT soMetHiNg tiLl cHeR aSkEd mE wHaT haPpenEd ! HAHA. rEaDiNg wAs nIcE bEcaUsE i gOt tHe MoOd aNd wE couLdNt uPsKiRt tHe cHeR uNlikE ydaY wHerE sHe worE sKiRt aNd sIt oN tHe tabLe wItH legS oPeNeD wIdE ! HAHAHA. MT leSsoNs ; qUitE reLaXiNg aNd wE gOt sWeEtS tO eaT ! acTuaLly jIaWeN aNd mE doNt hAvE ! bUt tHaNks tO tHe gUyS wHo gAvE uS tHeIrS aNd tHe botH oF uS gOt o3 iNstEaD oF o2 ! lalala. dIdNt WaNt tO gIvE LipiNg aNd i heLd oNtO mY pockEt ! HAHA. toLd jIaWeN tO gIvE bEcaUsE i oNly gOt o2 ! HAHA. LAMO. weNt foR luNcH aNd i FiNaLly sAw him ! beFoRe lEaViNg tHe caNtEeN ; sMiLeD tO him aNd his FreNs weNt aHeM-aHeM ! walau eH ! HAHA. weNt uP tO haLl aNd wE hAd a MiSsioN tT wAs tO wAvE aT a gUy wE doNt kNoW aNd tHe gUy mUsT wAvE bAcK ! HAHA. wAvEd aT loWeR sEc ; tHeY hEcK caRe uS ! HAHA. LOL. weNt foR AVA aNd iT wAs boRiNg ! his freN pUrposEly askEd mE wHerE`s him aLl tHosE sTuFfS.. LAMO. fiNaLly ; wE couLd usE tHe vIdEocaM aNd weNt tO fLiM ! HEHEHE. weNt tO baNd aNd wE fLimEd sHaFfiyaN wHo saId aNd wAvEd byEe aFtEr tHe sHoRt iNtErvIeW ! HAHA. GEE. weNt bAcK bEcaUsE wE couLdNt fiNd aNyoNe aNyMorE aNd peRhaPs ; NeXt nExT wEeK iF wE gOt tHe pErMiSsioN wE caN gO oUt wItH NCC aNd iNtErViEw tHeM ! WOOPEE. *prays* caLlEd him aNd waItEd aT tHe gatE.. sTaNd aT tHe bUs sToP aNd weNt tO MAC tO gEt a dRiNk wItH him.. waLkEd hoMe iN tHe raiN ! lalala. he waNtEd tO eaT icE bUt i sNaTchEd tHe cUp aNd aiM tHe dUsTbiN iMmEdiaTeLy ! HAHA. he gOt a LiL upsEt bUt i cHeErEd him uP ! HEHE. *bleahs* tHeN saT aT soMe sEaTs wHiLe waItiNg FoR tHe raiN tO sToP ! rEaD magaZiNe aNd LeFt.. SIGHS. tHe waLk wItH him wAs sooooooooooo FaSt ! tHeN aT tHe sTaIrS ; dIdNt sAw him poiNtiNg aT soMetHiNg ! i LookEd uP sUdDeNly aNd SCREAMED OUR MY LUNGS ! bEcaUsE tHerE`s a CAT ! AHHHHHH. he wAs sHockEd bUt he LaUghEd ! askEd him tO cHasE tHe caT aWaY aNd i qUicKly raN aWaY ! HAHA. i dIdNt darE tO moVe wHeNeVeR he puLlEd mY haNd ! HAHA. waItEd foR 92o aNd AWWS ; hAd tO bId gOodbyEe ! lala. cooL dowN aNd rEaD noVeL beFoRe sHoWeRiNg ! *breathes in* nIcE&fResH ! HEHE. aNd i rEaLisEd mY lEg wAs swollen ! No WoNdEr iT wAs sooooo paiN wHeN i waLkEd jUsT noW ! x( oNliNe aNd weNt tO hEaT diNnEr 2o MiNs beFoRe 9ooPM.. wAtChEd tV aNd dId hWk tHe saMe tiMe.. pHy wAs sUpEr sIaNz aNd i dId HaLfWaY aNd kEpT eVeRytHiNg.. weNt oUt tO wAtCh tV wHiLe rEaDiNg noVeL ! OMG. SEX sTuFfS ! HAHA. caMe oNliNe aNd sToPpEd tExTiNg wItH him.. bLaHs aNd oFf tO sLeEp ! totally drained out by everything !
o323 .
counting to five more days left ! *cries*
im feeling AFRAID / SCARED / WHATEVER WORDS THAT DESCRIBES FEAR now !
SIGHS. i wAs LatE iN mEeTiNg him aNd tHe waLk tO sChOoL wAs nIcE ! HEHE. weNt uP tO cLaSs iMmEdIaTeLy aNd tHe MoMeNt i sTePpEd iNtO cLaSs wItH a sMiLe oN mY facE ; XiNhUi qUeStioNeD mE ! HAHA. hAd gEo aNd wE coMpLetEd coPyiNg tHe O LVL tHiNg FoR gEo aNd tiMe wAs aLmosT uP.. yEaa. dId a bIt oF rEvIsioN oN agRicUltUrE aNd LeSsoN eNdEd ! WEWE. hAd pHy wHicH wAs frEaKiNg BORED&SLEEPY ! HAHA. hAd aBt 1o MiNs bReaK beFoRe leSsoN eNdEd aNd i rEaD mY noVeL ! HEHE. hAd eNg aNd WeNt tO sIt wItH FaRhadI ! lala. dId tHe O LVL coMpRe wHicH iS haRd ! AHH. dId o2 qNs oNly ; caN diE aLrEadY ! gOt sooooo MaNy sMaLl paRtS iN o1 qNs ! WTH. weNt foR rEcEsS aNd waItEd FoR LipiNg wItH saNdY ; gEraLdiNe aNd zHiyiNg wHo kEpT saYiNg mE xTra lahz aNd aLl tHosE cRaPs ! HAHA. walauuuu eH ! wHiLe waItiNg ; sAw him !! WOOPEE. *smiles from heart* weNt tO caNtEeN aNd i sTaNd uP jUsT tO sEe him.. weNt tO sIt aT voId dEcK aNd atE bIscUiTs ! sooo yumYUMs ! HEHE. wAs waItiNg FoR him aNd him waNtEd tO sPrAy uS wItH tHe wAtEr hosE bUt dIdNt kNoW hoW tO oPeN ! HAHA. LOUSY lahz ! lala. weNt tO wAsHrooM aNd bAcK foR MT ; wHerE wE dId dRaWiNgS ! LOL. weNt tO boRroW cHeM bOoKs aNd hAd cHeM.. eMatHs ; weNt tHrU ydaY hWk aNd wAs gIveN aNotHeR gRapH WS ! dO tiLl 23oPM bEcaUsE wE wErE sUpposEd tO hAvE gEo aT 2ooPM ! ARGHS. dO tiLl sUpEr sTrEsS likE tT eH ! sAw him oUtsIdE cHeRs rooM aNd weNt tO aSk iF i NeEd tO waIt FoR him bUt gOt a doNt kNoW aNs.. weNt foR gEo tiLl 3ooPM oNly aNd weNt loT o1 foR luNcH wItH zHiyiNg ; jIaWeN aNd XiNhUi.. LipiNg hAd rEmEdiaLs tiLl 43oPM ! SIGHS. hopefully ; she can come back to 4/2 asap ! and everything would be the same again. im not used to not having her with us ! tExtEd him wHeN i LeFt loT o1 wItH zHiyiNg.. he fiNishEd rEmEdiaLs aNd i hAd tO mEeT him aT mY bUs sToP.. rEaD noVeL wHiLe i waItEd aNd he aRrivEd ! HEHE. askEd him soMe sChOoLwoRk aNd waItEd 92o bUs wItH him tiLl 615PM ! HAHA. dId soooo MaNy stupid sTuFfS aT tHe bUs sToP likE sItTiNg iN tHe MiDdLe oF tHe roAd ; sItTiNg oN tHe fLooR aNd aSkiNg him tO puLl mE uP ; sItTiNg aT tHe edgE oF tHe bUs sToP ; pLayiNg sOcCeR wItH him wItH tHe dRiNk i bRoUgHt wHeN he shLd hAvE goNe uP tHe 6ooPM bUs ! ( soooo bAd ! ) aNd pLayiNg tHe MagIc cHaIr gaMe aT tHe bUs sToP ! HEHE. i tIcklEd him loTs oF tiMeS eH ! HAHAHAHA. soooooooo fuN eH ! WEWE. beFoRe aLl tHosE fuN&LaUgHtErS ; he toLd mE soMetHiNg tT iS goiNg tO takE pLacE oN suNdaY ! SIGHS. aFtEr hEaRiNg ; i FeLt sooooooooo upset&scared tiLl i nEaRly bRusT iNtO tEaRs iN fRoNt oF him bUt i heLd tHeM bAcK aNd toLd him iM goiNg hoMe tO cRy ! bId gooDbyEe aNd hEaD hoMe.. sHoWerEd aNd oNliNe ; cHaTtEd wItH szEhUi aNd toLd hEr aBt tHe tHiNg ! SIGHS. hAviNg a terrible hEaDspiN ! AHHHH. oFf coM aNd dId a LiL bIt oF hWk ; hAd LJS foR diNnEr wHiLe i wAtChEd tV + rEaD noVeL aT boRiNg PaRtS.. NoT foRgEtTiNg ; tExTiNg wItH him !! WEWE. wAtChEd sure-to-laugh sHoW aNd iT wAs AWWS ; sooooooooooo nice&sad ! *cries in the heart* weNt tO coMpLetE mY hWk aNd caLlEd him ! iT wAs nIcE tO hEaR his voicE aNd toWaRdS tHe eNd oF tHe coNvErsaTioN ; wE taLkEd aBt that MaTtEr he toLd mE aT tHe bUs sToP aNd im sorry if i cant / didnt kept my promise to you ! i didnt meant to break your heart. SORRY. couLdNt sLeEp aFtEr pUtTiNg dowN ; oN tHe coM aNd kEpT hEaRiNg tHe saMe oLd soNg.. SIGHS. iT isNt a nIcE nIgHt ! only twu matters couLd MakE mE sooooo
you were the one who brought those smiles&laughters that came from my heart.
now that you are telling me you might forget me.
how could you forget me and all those memories we had since day one ?
how should i react if this really happens ?
i dont know what to do.
but cry silently in the night.
praying to God that this wont be happening.
i need you to be there for you.
you made me fall for you.
and you cant leave me just like this.
my heart missed a beat and my tears welled up when you told me this thing.
you told me not to think so much.
but it isnt you who`s would be going to be hurt.
its me.
its me who would be suffering all the pains in the end.
its me who would be remembering all these memories.
if you forget me after sunday , march26.
you would be just walking away like nothing had happened.
God , dont make this happen will You ?
o324 .
counting to four more days left ! *cries*
sorry silly. i couldnt kept my promise to you. x(
i cRiEd tO sLeEp aNd oNly hAd o4 hoUrS oF sLeEp.. MeT him aT tHe saMe pLacE aNd i sMiLed.. weNt uP tO cLaSs aNd pUt mY bAgS wHerE wE coMpEtE aNd botH rEaChEd tHe sTaIcasE tHe saMe tiMe bUt he iNsIstEd tT he rEaChEd fIrsT ! *sticks tongue* wE paRt wHeN wE rEaChEd mY cLaSs LiNe.. SIGHS. sAw him foR tHe LaSt tiMe beFoRe o3 hoUrS oF leSsoN sTaRt.. *frowns* hAd o4 pErIoDs oF scI ! SHAG. cHeM ; wE dId tEsT aNd i hopE i caN pAsS bEcaUsE i dIdNt rEaLly sTudY foR iT ! toLd LiN aBt that MaTtEr aNd FaRhadI KPO aR ! *giggles* pHy ; weNt tHrU noTeS oN nEw cHaPtEr aNd bLaHs.. iT wAs boring ! HAHA. eNg ; coNtiNuEd tHe O LVL coMpRe wHerE wE wiLl oNly coMpLetE aLl tHe qNs oN moNdaY.. HAHA. WOW. a pAssagE wHicH tOoK uS aBt o4 / o5 daYs tO gEt iT doNe wItH a LoT oF cHeR heLp ! yEaa. dIdNt gEt tO sIt wItH eNg paRtHnEr bEcaUsE iT wAs oNly a pErIod.. saT oUtsIdE tHe cLaSsrooM wItH XiNhUi aNd fiNaLly mRsLiM caMe ! weNt tO toiLeT aNd i waLkEd PaSt his cLaSs *stamps foot* ; i dIdNt sAw him bUt sAw his bAg aNd FreNs ! ARGHS. weNt dowN aNd sUdDeNly XiNhUi scReaMeD ! i LoOkEd foRwaRd aNd sAw a bIg bEe ! *screams immediately* i WaNtEd tO usE mY haNd tO makE tHe bEe aWaY bUt iM scarEd !! HAHA. qUicKly raN tO tHe sIdE aNd bAcK tO oUr cLaSs ! HAHA. *blushes* HAHA. coMpLetEd tHe hWk aNd haNdEd iN ! weNt tO caNtEeN wItH XiNhUi aNd gRaB a bItE wHiLe waItiNg FoR him wHo PaSsEd bY tHe tabLe iM sItTiNg ! tHeN XiNhUi scoLdEd him FUCK YOU bEcaUsE oF soMetHiNg !! HAHAHA. weNt tO voId dEcK to mEeT tHe rest aNd they dIdNt carEd aBt uS ! HAHA. they pLayEd soMe gaMe aNd sUddeNly jIaWeN gOt o4 fEeT wHerE zHiyiNg tOoK tHe sHoEs&socKs oUt aNd tHrEw ! HAHA. XiNhUi aNd mE joiNed iN aNd kIckEd.. i rEmovEd mY sHoE aNd LeT jIaWeN sMeLt ! HAHA. XiNhUi cHasEd aFtEr mE aNd i hAd tO ruN wItH o1 sHoE iN mY haNd iN fRoNt oF him wHerE he sHooK his hEaD ! HAHAHA. zHiyiNg askEd mE tO coMe aNd pUt hEr haNdS oVeR mY sHouLdEr bEcaUsE he toLd zHiyiNg iF sHe darE tO toUcH mE ; he wiLl sLaP hEr ! HAHA. tHeN tHe gUyS iN oUr cLaSs aLsO joiNeD iN aNd XiNhUi vIdEo dowN ! AHH. XiNhUi ; upLoad tHe vIdEo tO coM aNd seNd mE ! tHe sEcoNd tiMe ; i aLso weNt tO pUt mY haNdS aRd zHiyiNg ! HAHA. his FreN pUrposEly askEd mE wHerE iS him wHeN he iS oN tHe tHiRd fLooR ! walauuuuu.. MakE mE paiseh oNly ! HAHA. weNt bAcK foR three pErIoDs oF aMatHs ! AHH. tiMe PaSsEd qUitE fAsT lahz.. lEarNt o2 maLaMY woRd aNd FaRhadI kEpT tEasiNg mE eH ! walauuuu ! HAHA. tExtEd him bEcaUsE zHiyiNg askEd mE tO dO sO ! HAHA. caLlEd him aFtEr sChOoL aNd iN tHe eNd ; i toLd him i bLuFf him oNe tHeN he huNg mE uP ! x( weNt foR luNcH aNd weNt tO CO rooM aNd pLayEd ! roLlEd oN tHe fLooR wItH juNioRs tHerE sEeiNg ! HAHA. gOt pIggYbAg aNd fIghtEd ! caMe dowN aNd wAs xPosEd ! XiNhUi raN tO mE wHiLe i saT oN tHe fLooR aNd hEr haNdS sLidEd PaSt mY ________ ( only certain ppl know ) !! AHH. hAd CO aNd aFtEr tT cHaNgEd gRp ! weNt sLacKiNg aRd ! HAHA. jIaWeN ; LipiNg aNd mE caRriEd XiNhUi bY tHe fEeTs&haNdS ! HAHA. beFoRe tT ; caLlEd him aNd tHeN weNt tO caNtEeN tO waIt foR him aFtEr tHe sTupId tHiNg aBoVe ! HAHA. he LookEd sooooooo nIcE iN his NuMbEr o4 uNiForM + NuMbEr o3 aLso ! HEHE. im going to capture a picture of him in this both uniform SOON ! lalala. LiSteNeD tO soNg ; rEaD noVeL aNd scRiBbLEd LyrIcS oN his PaPeR ! HEHE. he caMe aNd weNt oFf.. cHaTtEd wItH biN foR a LiL wHiLe aNd sHe tHoUgHt he dIdNt tReaT mE gOod ! HAHA. weNt tO MAC wItH him aNd gEt dRiNk.. waLkEd hoMe aNd he wAs haPpiLy
o325 .
counting to three more days left ! *cries*
i hAd 11hoUrS&3oMiNs oF sLeEp todaY aNd tHe first tHiNg i sAw wHeN i wokE uP wAs his MeSsagE wHerE i qUicKly rEpLiEd ! wAsHeD uP aNd hAd mY luNcH wHiLe wAtChEd tV&tExT ! yEaa. *smiles* iT wAs a good wAy tO sTaRt tHe daY tiLl soMeoNe caMe bAcK aNd nag ! WTF. i really hatE oKaYs ! ARGHS. tHeN sUddeNly he caLlEd mE ( *brightens* ) bEcaUsE i hAd tO sToP teXtiNg bEcaUsE i doNt WaNt tO sEe hIgH biLlS agaiN !! AHH. toLd him tO pUt dowN aNd i caLlEd him agaiN.. cHaTtEd haPpiLy aNd hAd tO gO tO mY rooM tO coNtiNuEd iF noT ; alamak ! gEt Nag aNd Nag ! ARGHS. hAd tO pUt dowN wHeN he`s nEaR MAC aLrEadY ! AWWS. sHoWerEd aNd atE icE cReaM wHiLe tHe faN bLeW mE aNd firefly soNg wAs pLayiNg iN mY eArS ! HEHE. tHeY madE mE mOoD beTtEr ! rEaD noVeL aNd i NeEd tO bUy NeW sToRybOoK ASAP ! oNliNe aNd lalala.. usEd tiLl 6ooPM aNd WeNt tO teN miLe foR a siMpLe diNnEr.. seNt KoRz tO hIs gUrXfreN`s hoUsE aNd bAcK hoMe tO oNliNe agaiN.. mIgHt gO tO bPp LaTeR aNd hopE CITY CHAIN sHoP iS hAviNg saLe sO i couLd pUrcHasE a NEW wAtCh ! WEWE. *prays* aNd hopE he`s sTiLl tHerE wHeN i rEaChEd bUt i doNt tHiNk sO ! weNt tO bPp aNd surprisingly ; he`s there ! HEHE. *rolls on floor* waLkEd aRd aNd boUgHt sHaMpoo oNly ! LAME. waLkEd PaSt MAC agaiN aNd tHaT wAs tHe LaSt tiMe i sAw him beFoRe suNdaY coMeS aNd that MaTtEr wouLd takE pLacE.. sHoWerEd aNd i pRaY tHaT tHe tExT wAs fRoM him.. WOOPEE. caLlEd him foR a wHiLe aNd toLd him tT i sAw him jUsT noW ! HAHA. oNliNe aNd cRaPpEd.. tHeN he caLlEd agaiN aNd cHaTtEd tiLl he rEaChEd hoMe.. hopE his cHecKuP wouLd bE fiNe ! *prays hard* iTs sunday aLrEadY ; tHe daY wHerE tHe tEsT foR tHe botH oF uS coMeS ! iM soooooo scarEd ! SIGHS. i toLd mYseLf tO bE pReParE foR tHe woRsT ( in case ; touch wood still ) bUt i doUbT iM ! iF tHe
I came to greater realised that i need you even more.
Just a look of you could make me smile.
You never fail to put on a smile whenever you see me.
Nevertheless , you could make me smile&laugh and cry for you from the bottom of my heart.
You always make me to look forward each day to see you.
I enjoy having you by my side.
The way you held my hand.
And many other things , were craved in my mind.
Those moments i had with you were so sweet&unforgettable.
You never fail to leave my mind.
You play an important role in my life.
I love the way you smile.
I love the way you look at me.
I love your everything.
I love you even more , my dear silly.
You are the person who brighten up my life even more.
I thank God for letting this true&faithful love of yours to come into my life.
I never had all these emotions in me after 15 years of living.
Please dont let go of my hand even though i always told you to woo other girls or mentioned the word break-up.
You should know that i didnt meant it.
You should know that you became more important to me.
And my love for you is growing even more.
I apologised for hurting you in any way.
I thank you for loving me.
And you are being an excellent boyfriend.
Flaws are necessary.
So stop apologising to me anymore when it isnt your fault.
P.S : I LOVE YOU.
Lastly , i want to dedicate this part of a song to you ;
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
i miss you silly ; you are so irresistible like these M&Ms *laughs* ( inside joke ) i hope everything would turn out fine. muacks. i will be waiting for you.