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Thursday, October 29, 2015

11:16 PM

The clear blue sky, stuffy chest and brain calls for a night walk tonight! Actually forced myself to slow run thrice too. It really makes me clear my mind of everything and just focus on breathing plus the music that was playing. I'm grateful that every song the ipod played tonight was upbeat enough to keep on going for 1 hour!

Found a place where I can oversee the highway. Its a very soothing place with natural breeze! But I had to keep looking behind since its a little quiet... hahaha. But its worth going back there again! (:

I also took a walk down the past memories lane by going through my fb timeline... It made me felt nostalgic like I used to actually have friends who cared about me randomly but gone were those days............ *faint smile* Guess people do drift apart no matter how close you used to be.. and it kinda hurts. Yeah...

Life is so mundane that its getting to a depressing point. I wish I can move to somewhere new, away from all these.

I think the thing that is making me depressed are those false feelings. Its really time to stop and pull your socks up. Focus on realistic things cause you're still feeling lonely alone. You are still not comfortable being alone. WAKE UP.

I feel really lost. I need changes.