Saturday, May 08, 2010

2:33 AM

I thought I would be carrying happy and positive thoughts as I come to this page after so long and also, survived a period of being internet-less. (Im quite surprised that I managed to do that and also, I felt that I have more time for other stuffs that I should place them as #1 on my list instead. In turn, I felt more accomplished than usual. Im hoping to keep it that way though I have stable internet now.)

Back to my purpose for this post.

I feel that this world has becomenso dark, so depressing, so demoralising, so disheartning, so cold, so harsh..... that I dont seem and feel that I could fit in anymore. I dont feel light hearted, I dont feel confident of myself, I dont feel happy and most importantly... I dont feel the need to belong here anymore.

So so so so much things has happened and Im so lost. So so so so lost. I dont see a glimpse of light that could guide me.

I feel so alone. So so so alone. Its like no matter how much I try talking or how loud I scream no one can hear me, no one wants to be my listening ear.

Its like if Im gone, no one would even notice and worst, I actually didnt mind the fact that Im gone..... I felt so much better when I can finally stop breathing. Because it means I will no longer need to feel anything...


Everywordspoken...itaimu
Everythought...itaimu
Everypicture...itaimu