Hope Never Abandons You , You Abandon It

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

11:15 AM

The month of November and half of December is satisfactory & satisfied (:

FoR tHe PaSt o1 wHoLe MtH ; a vaRiEty oF tHiNgS hAd haPpeNed wHerE i kEpT hAviNg SO nEgatIvE tHoUgHtS oN liFe.. i fouNd iT haRd tO facE tHe MusIc wHerE Renfu wAs rEaLly goiNg tO bE a FatHeR bUt aFtEr a daY oF tHiNkiNg aNd wAtChiNg Wan Yu ; i rEaLisEd tHaT i shLd bE oN cLoUd NiNe foR Him aNd beLiEvE tHaT He wiLl bE tHe MoSt luckiest ; happiest MaN iN tHe worLd tHaT i love tO a gReaT xteNd ! :D

bEeN sPeNdiNg tiMe wItH myseLf wHerE i coMpLetEd wAtChiNg soMe MoViEs ; o6 dRaMas wHicH aRe super duper ultra xtremely definately very awesome ! i wAs eItHeR laUgHiNg My aSs oUt oR cRyiNg mY eyEs oUt ! iT bRoUgHt mY daYs uP aNd dowN ; o2 NoVeLs wHerE i LoSt myseLf iN tHe booK i rEad beFoRe bEdtiMe wHicH lEd mE tO tEaRs.. aNd yEs ; MoRe sHoPpiNg esPecIaLly wHeN tHe saLeS hErE aRe sUpEr cRazY ! HAHAHA. iMagiNe hAviNg ppL tO qUeuE uP oVeRnIgHt foR saLeS wHerE aLl oF tHeM rUshEd iN likE noBodY bUsiNeSs aNd sTaRt gRaBbiNg aNytHiNg wHeN tHe sTorEs aRe oPeN.. this is really insane. oH ! aNd saY heLlo tO MoRe jEaNs ; sWeaTeRs ; sHiRtS ; paNtS ; eaRriNgS aNd a jumpy me ! bUt iM sTiLl cRaViNg foR moreeeeeeeeeee puR-leasE ! i wouLd rEaLly LovE tO dRoP bY Vivo City ! iN addItioN ; i caNt waIt foR tHe NeXt Harry Potter MoViE wHicH wouLd bE oN scReeN oN 13Julyo7 ! *hops around* aNd hAd dEcIdEd tO rE-rEad Half Blood Prince ASAP..

eVeR siNcE i-doNt-kNoW-wHeN ; i sTaRtEd sKiPpiNg gyM sEssioNs iN tHe earLy MorNiNg aNd caN oNly wakE uP aFtEr 11ooAM ; sToP hAviNg tHe gO-oNliNe-qUicKeR-tO-gRaB-tHe-cHaNcE-tO-taLk-wItH-frieNdS kiNd oF mOod.. pErhaPs MoSt oF tHeM aRe bUsY wItH tHe uPcoMiNg pErFoRmaNcE aT Victoria Hall wHicH wAs sUccEsSfuL aNd soMe doNt aPpeaR oNliNe tHaT oFteN.. iT wAs rEaLly nIcE foR soMe tO sPeNd a geNeRoUs aMouNt tO seNd sTuFfs oVeR wHicH madE mE feeL aT hoMe ! EspEciaLly wHeN i rEcEivEd tHe cLaSs pHoToS ; OHMY. i MiSs mY cLaSs sooooooo mUcH ! nevertheless ; i appreciate that a lot from my heart.

oNliNe sChooLworK iS rEaLly botHeRiNg mE eVeRy wEek aS iTs rEaLly veryyyyyyyyyy tEdIoUs ! i wouLd oFteN dRiFt aWaY tO otHeR wEbsItEs iNstEad oF coNceNtRaTiNg oN tHosE woRdS aFtEr woRdS pagEs.. i doUbT tHaT tHe NeXt oNliNE cLaSs wouLd bE beTtEr ! iMagiNe LearNiNg MicRosoFt poWeRpoiNt ; woRdS ; scRaPsHeEt eTc. i couLd foResEe MyseLf wHiNiNg aNd wHiNiNg tO tHe waLl..

i aM hoMe aLl aLoNe NoW sTicKiNg mY aSs eVeRywHerE foR tHe pErsoN wHo kEepS mE coMpaNy wiLl hAvE tO gO bAcK hoMe.. iM soooooooooo eNvY aS goiNg bAcK oNcE iS soooooooo iMmpossIbLe ! bUt iM sTiLl piNniNg soMe hopE oN iT.. i MiSs tHosE daYs wHerE i worE mY sChOoL uNiforM wItH o4 otHeR iNsaNe sTudeNtS goiNg aLl oVeR SiNgaPorE taKiNg tHaT oNly tHe o5 oF uS exIsT ! rEcaLliNg tHosE tiMeS wErE rEaLly tHe haPpiEsT daYs iN sEcoNdaRy sChOoL..

tHe tHoUgHts oF toUcHiNg&sEeiNg&pLaYiNg sNoW kEpT pLayiNg tHrU mY miNd bUt iT tUrNed oUt tO bE a dIsapPoiNtmeNt i bRoUgHt uPoN myseLf ! iNstEad ; wE wErE goiNg tO Grand Canyon tO sEe MaNy layErS oF mouNtaiNs bLeNdiNg togEtHeR wHicH looKs LikE paiNtiNg.. tHe wiNd uP tHerE wAs rEaLly cHiLliNg tHaT i couLdNt FeeL mY haNdS&fEeTs ! i caN rEaLly FeeL tHaT tHe wEatHeR iN Arizona iS cHaNgiNg tiLl i caNt wItHsTaNd yEt i sTiLl dEsirE tO gO uP tO Flagstaff wHicH hAs a teMpEratUrE wItH a MiNus sIgN aT tHe FroNt ! WAKEUPDENISE. i tHiNk i mIgHt diE iF iM rEaLly tHerE ! bUt HEY ; iMagiNe a wHoLe piEcE oF laNd coVerEd iN wHitE wItH faLliNg sNoWfLakEs ! aNd a dReaM oF mY liFe gUy haPpeNs tO bE tHerE aS wEll ! AHHH ~ pErHaPs bEiNg FoRzeN tO dEatH tHerE isNt sUcH a bAd idEa ! *smacks ownself*

iT tOoK mE sUcH a longggggggggggg tiMe tO figUrE tHiS oUt esPecIaLly aFtEr wAtChiNg nuMbEroUs HoNgKoNg sEriEs : hongkong actors are pretty good-looking ! MaybE i caN coNsIdEr soMetHiNg ! HAHAHA.

i caN saY tHaT tHe nIgHt hErE iS eNticiNg aS maNy hoUsEs aRe dEcoRatEd wItH xMaS lIgHtS wHicH iS iNcRedIbLy bRigHt aNd sTuNniNg ! tHeY wouLd pLacE raiNdEeRs ; saNta ; cHrIstMaS tReE aNd otHeR reLatEd dEcoRaTioNs aLl oVeR tHe rooF aNd tHe FroNt oF tHe hoUsE.. wHeNeVeR yoU caTcH a gLiMpsE oF iT ; yoU wouLd gO WOW ~ tHerE`s rEaLly tHe xMaS mOod hErE uNlikE bAcK hoMe wHerE ppL jUsT hEaD dowN tO towN tO couNtdowN oR sTaY hoMe foR couNtdowN pRogaMmEs oR seNd tExTs aRd.. its getting boring. iM looKiNg FoRwaRd tO sEe hoW xMaS iS ceLebRatEd hErE..

i tOoK tiMe oFf oN oNe eVeNiNg aNd rE-rEad aLl tHe 2oo6 PaSt eNtRiEs aNd iT madE mE agrEed tHaT iM no different from any other teenagers wHo bLoggEd aBt tHeiR reLaTioNsHiP.. i oFteN toLd mYseLf tHaT iS SO sIcKeNiNg tO sEe teeNs bLoggiNg i LovE yoU FOREVER wHeN tHeIr reLaTioNsHiP hAs jUsT sTaRtEd.. bUt aFtEr rEadiNg mY pAst eNtRiEs wHerE i myseLf dO bLoggEd aBoUt mY reLaTioNsHiP fRoM hoW iT sTaRtEd ; wHaT haPpeNed tO hoW iT eNdEd - aLl iN dEtaiLed.. i eNdEd uP laUgHiNg aT myseLf aNd iMagiNed hoW pEopLe feLt dIsgUstEd oR iRritatEd wItH roLliNg eyEs aFtEr rEadiNg tHeM.. hopEfuLly i caN gRoW uP oN tHiS maTtEr aNd NoT leT hIsToRy rEpEaT agaiN ? HAHA. oR pErHaPs jUsT kEep a LoW pRofiLe..

dEc1o wAs tHe daY wHerE o3 MoNtHs hAd pAssEd siNcE tHe daY i LeFt.. i wAs sTaYiNg aT hoMe eVeRy siNgLe wEeKdaYs hooKiNg oNtO Youtube wHerE Ko-one ; zhong ji yi ban wAs tHe dRaMa tHaT kEpT mE gRiNniNg&sMiLiNg&laUgHiNg tHe wHoLe daY ! HAHA. YES. iTs tHe MoSt FuNniEsT dRaMa i eVeR wAtChEd ! iT lEd Me rEaLisEd Fahrenheit ; FeiLunHai ! wHeN i FiRsT sAw tHeM oN soMe eNtErtaiNmeNt NeWs pRogRaMmE ; i dIdNt botHeR tO noTicE.. bUt bEcaUsE oF tHiS dRaMa ; tHeY madE mE feeL sooooooooo sWeEt ! more darlings to love me and vice versa ! :D aNd i aLso fouNd tHeIr pErsoNaL bLogS ! AHH. bUt tHerE`s NeWs oF tHeM goiNg tO Singapore foR aUtogRaPh sEssioNs ! AHHH. WTH. ):

wEekeNds aRe aLso pLeasaNt ! waLkEd tO tHe sHoPpiNg aRea wHicH iS wEiRd bEcaUsE tHe ppL hErE doNt waLk ! tHeY dRivE aNd dRiVe aNd dRiVe - tHeY eVeN dRiVe tO leTtErboX aReAs ! bUt tHe waLk tHerE kiLls tiMe aNd MoNeY ! HAHA. MoSt iMpoRtaNtLy ; i FouNd a pLacE tO kiLl tiMe wItH mY faVoUritE Starbucks caFe : tHe bOoKsToRe wItH couNtLeSs oF booKs oN aNytHiNg ! *shakes the body* yEaa. i sHouLd poP bY moRe oFteN aS sooN aS i gEt a LiceNsE aNd caR ! HOHOHO. iMagiNe myseLf sItTiNg oN tHe coSy soFa pRovidEd wItH a booK tO rEad wItHoUt paYiNg ! (: aNd pErhaPs MeEt soMe caNdiEs foR tHe eyE !

I felt happiness for the past weeks - happier than I'd been in months. i wAsNt botHerEd bY tHe FacT tHaT tHe aduLts dRoVe miLeS aWaY aNd sHoP tHeIr MoNeY oFf.. i wAsNt botHerEd tHaT i wAs sTucK hoMe foR o5 daYs.. iNstEad ; i wAs MucH moRe gRatEfuL foR tHaT ! aNd YES. a bIg THANKYOU tO mY laPtoP&iNtErNeT tO bE tHerE foR mE 24/7 ! I feel that its so fine for life to stay this way for I can undergo happiness instead of sorrows or troubles.

wItHoUt rEaLisiNg ; i FouNd oUt tHaT nO maTtEr wHerE i gO oR wHaT i dO wiLl reMiNd mE oF eVeRy siNgLe haPpeNiNg wItH eVeRyoNe bAcK hoMe.. this actually deepen those misses. NoW ; i prEsuMe i couLd saY i fouNd mY pUrPosE oF coMiNg tO USA wHerE i hAvE tO rEsTaRt a wHoLe NeW diFfereNt LiFe.. pErHaPs God waNtS tO gIvE mE aN oPpoRtuNity tO gEt nEaReR tO mY paSsioN ; mY goaLs ; mY dReaMs aNd mY hopEs.. i sincerely hope that i will make full use of my time here aNd bRiNg a dEgReE hoMe tO dO pRoud My faMiLy ; FrieNds ; mE aNd oF coUrsE God wHosE eFfoRts isNt iN vaiN !

wEll ; i hopE tHaT mY fRieNdS wiLl feeL tHaT iM tRyiNg tO cHaNgE aNd gRoW uP iN tHiS o2 yEaRs aNd rEturN aS a ladY aNd NoT a LittLe cHiLdisH girL iN eVeRyoNe eyEs aNyMorE..


Be is the first to believe that (:

i woNdEr foR a LiL wHiLe iF i shLd voIcE tHiS oUt.. i kNoW tHaT eVeRyoNe iS borN wItH diFfeReNt cHaRacTeRs aNd i kNoW tHaT iTs wRoNg tO cRitcIsE iT.. bUt i caNt heLp tO feeL sooooooooo aNnoyEd bY tHiS pErsoN ( lets name this person W ) wHo caMe oVeR tO vIsIt soMeoNe.. i tHoUgHt tHaT tEacHeRs aRe sUpPosE tO bE moRe sociabLe siNcE tHeY wiLl mEeT diFfereNt KiNd oF sTudeNtS iN sChOoL.. hoWeVeR W iS soMeoNe SUPER diFfeReNt ! eVeRyoNe wAs sUpposEd tO gO soMewHerE foR luNcH aNd iT wAs My FiRsT tiMe meEtiNg W.. bUt wHeN i aRrivEd aT wHerE W aNd otHeRs aRe sTaYiNg ; W acTuaLly caMe uP wItH aNotHeR xcUsE saYiNg W hAs a hEadacHe wHicH iS SO OBVIOUS tHaT W iS tRyiNg tO saY W isNt iNtErEstEd iN tHiS aT aLl aNd doEsNt rEsPecT oR i shLd saY gIvE facE tO ppL wHo W doesNt kNoW ! W eVeN dIdNt botHeR tO coMe oUt aNd gReEt a hI ! tHiS makEs mE waNna saY WTF.. beFoRe W caMe ; i hEaRd ppL saYiNg W iS noT socIabLe aNd LikEs tO hAvE " o2 people world " oNly eTc. i dIdNt rEaLly beLiEvE bUt aFtEr wHaT haPpeNed ; i toLd mYseLf tHaT W is tHe LAST pErsoN pErsoN i doNt eVeN waNt aNd wIsH tO sMiLe / saY heLlo aT ! i ratHeR sMiLe tO aNiMaLs foR gOodNeSs sakE ! i kNoW tHaT iTs NoT a gOod tHiNg tO dO tHiS bUt i rEaLly caNt sTaNd tHiS kiNd oF pErsoN - a pErsoN wHo doNt botHeR tO hAvE baSiC maNnErS tO soMeoNe hE/sHe doesNt kNoW aNd a pErsoN wHo iS SO FUCKING ANTI-SOCIAL ! sO wHaT iF W LikEs tHaT sTupId " o2 world people " tHiNg ?! I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMM TO IT. tHe woRsT tHiNg iS : i hAvE tO tRaveL tO soMewHerE eLsE wItH W aNd otHeRs ! WTH. tHiS LeTs mE rEcaLl tHaT soMeoNe toLd mE tO kEeP W aCcoMpaNy wHeN sHe LeAvEs hErE ! No WaY mannn.. PHEW.

God please dont ever let this kind of person to appear within my vision. Period.



santa ; my chirstmas wish this year is not asking for more yearnings or wants. All I ask for is that i will fulfill what i told myself here. A smooth sailing 2oo7 for family&friends&me. And fivesix and feilunhai wont go to Singapore till Im return. :D


And ; Happy Late Merry Bday greetings to :

Novo4 - Kamil
Novo5 - JR
Novo6 - Nurul
Novo8 - RuanJingTian
Nov1o : ChenYiRu 辰亦儒 !
Nov11 - LengFei ; Yanqi ; Xiangning and a joyful day with blushing red cheeks ! :D
Nov12 - YanJun
Nov16 - Kaiting
Nov17 - ZhengZhiQiao 曾之喬 ; Xuelin
Nov19 - Renfu new-born baby ! :D
Nov2o - YanYaLun 炎亞綸 ! ; Shiling ; Liyana
Nov21 - Kuntat
Nov25 - Suyu
Nov26 - David ; Fizza
Nov27 - Aisyah ; Meisuan ; Onn Shaun
Nov28 - Feldy
Nov29 - Geraldine
Deco1 - J.H ; Ong ; Weihsin
Deco2 - J.C
Deco3 - Chongying
Deco9 - Angie
Dec11 - Lenny

Dec12 - Happy Merry Bday to You - I
Its been 4 years.
I still have the lost-for-words towards you.
Everything is still the same.
Or perhaps it has became a habit long ago without realising.
And yes. Happiness is for you now.

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