Tuesday, September 20, 2005 3:27 PM
o92o .i gave up having the infatuation feeling on him when i realised that even he ( though he never gets to see me again ) shows me a lil concern when he knew im not feeling well. yet ; what did he do ?! nothing. expect treating me like a stupid toy of his. OHPLS. im a human with feelings. im not real dead ; for heaven sake !! yesterday night he message was like making me go WTF. concern words arent this way. i chose to delete his oh-what-concern-is-this message. i never want to be a fool waiting for his reply and amusing every message that comes in was his. i never imagine to hate him. and i guess i wont. im just glad that the matter is blown over.
everyone taste is different. i cant stand anymore jokings of who`s music is better. i cant. i give up too. i give up of asking anymore questions. i give up of knowing anymore secrets. i give up on acting as im habee or watever when we crap. i totally give up. you all may continue the game without me. SORRY.
dont take any offence to watever is written up there. XD
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