Sunday, July 17, 2005 3:47 PM
o716 .tHe wEaThEr bEcaMe COLDDD aFtEr tHe RaiN sToppEd tT eVeNiNg.. BRR. sPeNt mY tiMe dowNloadiNg soNgs aNd wAtChiNg tV.. WeNt tO freNsTeR aNd dL a gaMe " diNnEr daSh ".. walau eH ! pLay tT gaMe ; tHe spEed sooo fAsT tHeN soooo bUsY ! gEt paNiC eAsiLy mann.. wHeN i usEd uP tHe FrEe tRiaL tiMe ; mY hEaD wAs LikE sPiNniNg aNd MoViNg iN a FaSt pacE ! AHH. i thiNk aNgeLa aNd szEhUi caNt pLay tHiS gaMe iF noT ; tHeY mIgHt eNd uP WORSE tHaN mE ! HA. aFtEr pLayiNg tHe CoM foR likE o4 / o5 hoUrs ; hAd tO oFf bEcaUsE paReNts aRe NAGGING. wAtChEd tV aNd i FELL asLEeP !! AHH. i MissEd tHe eNdiNg oF tHe sHoW.. HAHA. oFf tHe tV aNd WeNt tO sLeEp.. gOt uP aT 9oo aNd wAtChEd tV iMmEdiaTeLy aFtEr wAshiNg uP.. hAd bReaKfasT aNd LatEr ; sHoWerEd.. walau !! *blood pressure going up* wAtChEd tT dRaMa caN gEt rEaL aNgrY wItH tHosE ppL wHo aRe sooooo FUCKING eViL aNd MadE mE HATE tHeM !! AHH. yEaa. i kNoW iTs jUsT a SHOW ; tHeRe`s No NeEd FoR mE tO gEt sooooo aNgrY ovEr iT.. bUt ; i rEaLly caNt sTaND tHeM lahz.. aFtEr tHe sHoW eNd ; aSkEd paPa To FeTcH MuM aNd mE tO tHe buLidiNg bEsIdE LoT o1.. GEE. tHe CITIBELL SPA sHoP ; chio mannnnn ! vErY eLegeNt aNd reLaXiNg.. *puts on a satisfaction smile* dId haIr tReaTmeNt aNd tRiM tHe haIr ! HA. tHe FriNgE tuRnEd oUt PRETTY OKAY mannnnn.. HAHAHA. bUt wAsNt usEd tO iT.. aFtEr a LiL wHiLe wHeN i LookEd iNtO tHe MiRroR ; i jUsT sMiLeD.. OKAYS. gOiNg tHerE foR maNicUrE wHeN MuM FiNisHeS tHe aPpoiNtmeNt.. NAIL ; PLS DONT BREAK. PRETTY PLS. weNt LoT o1 togEthEr wItH paPa wHo wAs waItiNg FoR uS aBt 1o-15 MiNs.. hAd a sLicE oF roTi pRaTa aNd WeNt tO tHe NeW oPeN ; YA KUN aNd hAd dRiNk.. boUgHt tHe refiLl pLasTic tHiNg FoR mY fiLe aNd hEaD hoMe.. wAtChEd tV tiLl 7oo.. caMe oNliNe.. szEhUi wAs tHe FiRsT tO sEe mY NEW haIr ! HAHA. FeeLiNg HONOUR iN aNy WaY mY dEaR ? bLaHs aNd WeNt adaM FoOd CeNtRe tO hAvE diNnEr.. MeSsagE wItH aNgeLa oN tHe WaY hoMe.. caMe oNliNe iMmEdIaTeLy aNd cHaTtEd wItH aNgeLa ; szEhUi ; XiNhUi aNd soMe otHeRs.. sO bUsY eH !! SORE fiNgErs.. HAHA. tHeN biN kEpT saYiNg mY haIr vErY nIcE tiLl i hAd tO gIvE hEr a KISS !! XiNhUi soMeMorE sHoWed mE a pIc oF dErRicK takeN wItH a sTuPid aSs fReaKiNg ugLy gUrX !! ARGH. rEaD bLogs ! i bRustEd iNtO LAUGHERS wHeN i rEaD aNgeLa`s bLog !! ( i shall copy and paste what is being written ) sHe saId " big bird cut hair lehs, so chio lehs. hahaha, more like lady liaos, no longer village gal. " walau eH !! dUnNo tOo gEt aNgRy oR waT mannn.. sHe sUaN mE TWICE oKaYs !! HA. cHaTtEd aNd cHaTtEd tiLl 12oo +.. koRz`s FiRsT seNteNcE tO mE aFtEr sEeiNg My HaIr wAs " why u act guai ? you looked so noob ( dont know what`s the real meaning even till today ) " *rolls eyes* xpEctEd lahz.. B2 aLso saId iTs NicE eH ! HAHA. dId soMe cHeM tYs qNs aNd WeNt tO sLeEp..
o717 .
iT pOurEd AGAIN aT 7oo ! bY tHe TiMe i wOkE uP tO cLosE tHe WiNdoW ; tHe FLooR wAs LikE WET. aFtEr o2 hoUrS ; wOkE uP aNd wAtChEd tV.. SOBS. i cRiEd FoR tHe gUrX - yoNgsI wHo wAs iN coMa aFtEr a CaR aCcideNt.. i tHoUgHt i wouLdNt cRy FoR tT gUy wHo wAs sooooo eViL aNd caUsiNg HiS owN faMiLy MeMbErS dEatH bUt iN tHe eNd ; i cRiEd wHeN i hEaRd tHe MeSsagE wHicH hE rEcoRd FoR hIs WiFe tT hE`s lEaviNg tHe WoRld aNd sEeiNg HiS dEaD boDy ; tEaRs jUsT floWeD dowN foR HiM pItY tHe yoNgsI aNd hEr boyFrieNd wHo waItEd aNd waItEd FoR hEr tO wakE uP.. sHe WeNt FoR aNothEr braiN sUrgErY aNd iT faiLeD !! bUt i oNly gOt tO kNoW tHiS aT tHe eNdiNg PaRt.. i tHoUgHt sHe MaNagEd tO livE bEcaUsE tHeY sHoWeD tHe botH oF tHeM haPpiLy posiNg FoR wEddiNg pHoTos.. yEt ; iT wAs oNly a dReaM.. *cries hardly* yEaa. a NicE sHoW aNd oNly ToWaRds tHe eNd ; iT wAs SAD. aFtEr tHosE cRyiNgs ; sHoWerEd aNd LeT tHe tV rEsT.. wAtChEd MR FIGHTING wHicH i wAs oNly aT dIsC 15 ! HA. wAtChEd aNd wAtChEd.. OHMY. caMe oNliNe aNd bLaHs hErE aNd tHerE.. pLayEd " diNnEr daSh " froM aNotHer wEbsItE.. iTs jUsT soooooo mUcH xcItEmeNt i hAd !! HAHA.
i just realised that a friend of mine who told me before that i can NEVER be cold-blooded because a lil bit of thing ; tears of mine wil just flow. and its TRUE after all. im the one who cant face the music and accept this flaw of mine. im just being strong and searching for a lil happiness i can from others. i just need a LIL. a lil of it im contented. since that day i gave up on you ; i told myself to live happier and treasure life instead. i did it. but it seems so unreal. i thought having them ; music and memories beside me ; i would be habee enough. but reality is ; humans just cant get enough of what they have. they want MORE. just a show that has touching and heartbreaking scenes can make me cry so much. cry over dramas that arent really happening in life. HA. thinking back ; im such a WEAK person who always think that i had grow STRONG. but i still need to depend on family and friends. i cant be 1oo% independent. i just cant. im so useless. im so weak. i just cry over anything that made my heart sad. im cant be a cold-blooded person. im not fit to be one. and never can i. i just hate to cry. i want to stop these cryings of mine. i just want to have NO more tears. i just want to be stronger. but GOD ; i CANT !!