Thursday, May 05, 2005 10:53 PM
o5o4 .hMm ;bLoggiNg wAs doNe aNd i WeNt tO wAtCh tHe LaSt ePisOdE oF MeNg XiaNg qI FeI.. oMigOsH ! yEaHs ; i WeNt gAgA oVeR tT haNdsoMe piLoT ! waHaHa ! hMm ; tHe eNdiNg sO roMaNtIc eH.. wAtChEd FoR o2 HoUrS + aNd wEnT tO dO hWk aNd sTudIEd a LiL.. bUt tHe CoM wAs tOo pOwErFuL aNd i CaMe oNliNe.. aNd dId tHiS aNd tT.. i cHaNgEd My bLoG soNg - gOoDbyE tO yOu bY MicHeLlE bRaNcH.. MayBe tHiS soNg iS gOiNg oUt tO hiM.. yEaHs ; HiM, tHe uNfoRgEtTabLe HiM.. wEnT tO sTudY a bIt oF cHiNesE aNd tHeN wAtChEd tV.. i cOuLdNt FaLL asLeEp.. hEaRd MuM`s bAcK aNd WeNt oUt oF tHe RooM.. i wAs HuNgRy ! aTe oNe eGg aNd bLaHs bLaHs.. i FeLl asLeEp UnKnoWiNgLy..
"a blessing from God is something u can feel"
"God always blesses for a purpose."
"there is no limit to God's goodness, if you didn't ask Him for a blessing yesterday,you didn't get all that He wanted to give you."
oh my ; oh my. im getting so into christian books. they are nicee. try them.
hAd pHy lEsSoNs aNd tHerE wAs a sHoRt tEsT.. dIdNt kNoW hoW tO dO tHe LaSt o2 qNs.. sIaNz ! aFtEr tT wAs e MatHs.. dId Ws aNd i cHaTtEd a LiL wItH soMe ppL.. i hAd tHe idEa oF gOiNg bAcK tO tHe TiMe wHerE i wAs kEePiNg siLeNcE oNly.. iT wAs bEtTeR tHaN mE ; taLkiNg NOW. i dIsLiKe ! yEaHs ; i`M gOiNg bacK ! haHa ! tHeN wAs eNg ; wE dId CoMpReHeNsioN.. bOrEd eH ! iBaIdaH saId tHiS aND tT rEmEdiaL tMl.. i wAs sO fEd uP bEcaUsE tHeY hAvE tO maNy MeEtiNgs tiLl sO laTe aNd i saId MeEtiNg liKe rUbBisH soMe soRt oF tHiS aNd hAd tO aPoLogIsE eH.. sIaNz ! rEcEsS ; dIdNT hAvE tHe MoOd tO eAt.. oN diEt ! rEaDiNg aNd wE gOt bAcK sS fiLe.. MORE HEAVY. aFtEr tT wAs cHeM.. wE dId wS wItHoUT rEfEriNg tO tHe bOoK.. tHeN MaRkEd.. hAvE hWk aNd tEsTs tO rEaD aNd dO !! bOtH MatHs ; cHeM ; sS.. WTF. sO maNy ! STRESS eH. i wAs cRyiNg iN mY hEaRt.. i dUn LiKe eVeRytHiNg tT wAs haPpeNiNg.. tHeN wAs sS.. wE dId sBq aGaiN.. tHeN cOpiEd tHiS aNd tT.. LuNcH bReaK.. tHoUgH tT pErsoN wAs NeaR mE ; bUt i dIdNt eVeN bOtHeR tO takE a LoOk.. hMm ; waITEd tiLl 315 foR a sHoRt sS rEmEdiaL.. bLaHs aNd bLaHs.. i waLkEd tO kEaT hoNg LrT mYseLf wItH aLl tHosE piLeS oF fiLeS aNd bOoKs.. iTs sO hEaVy aNd tHe suN wAs sO fUcKiNg HoT.. i wAs tOtaLly oUt oF mOoD.. gOt hoMe ; i bLasTeD tHe FaN aNd fiLe wS iNtO tHosE fiLeS tT nEarLy MadE mY haNd bRokE ! aRgH ! wEnT tO sHoWeR aNd caMe oNliNe FoR 3o MiNs aNd sTudiEd.. bUt sooN ; i sHiFtEd mY aTteNtioN tO tHe coMiC bOoK tT WeN jiE leNt mE.. waHaHa ! hAd diNnEr aNd rEaD tHe bOoK fiNishEd.. nExT wAs ; tHe 5566 MaGaziNe aNd LaStLy tHe LaSt cHaPtEr oF tT sToRybOoK sEriEs.. oH mY ! NO MORE. hAiX ! sTudiEd a wHiLe aNd caMe oNliNe AGAIN. iTs AGAIN. i CaNt coNtRoL ! wHy ; wHy ?! aHhHHhH ! i DuN waNna SLACK. i WaNt tO BUCK UP. PULL THE SOCKS HIGH UP. aRgH ! NeXt wEeK ; gOiNg tO bE hAviNg tHiS aNd tT.. sTrEsS aNd MorE sTrEsS.. SHRUGS. i HATE xaMs pErIoD ! tHeN wAtChEd 2o MiNs oF tT sHoW aNd iT wAs bOrEd sO i WeNt tO sLeEp eArLy.. i gOt cHiNesE coMpo bAcK aNd i sCoReD a 37/5o. gOoD oR bAd ? hAiX..
o5o5 .
hMm ; No LeSsoNs tOdaY ! wOopEe ! bUt iT wAs a BAD HOT daY.. MoRniNg i wAs aLrEadY sO hoT ! tHeN sTudiEd aNd sTudiEd.. aT 85o ; wE hAd Mt paPeR o1.. qUiTe oKaYs lAhX ! tHeN wAs rEcEsS ; WeNt dOwN aNd bOugHt a CaN oF dRiNk aNd hEaD bacK tO cLaSsRooM aNd bLoW faN ! tHeN sTudiEd lE ; wE hAvE paPeR o2 ! oMigOsH ! tHe HaN yU piN yiN sO eAsY eH ! xpEcT i wRoTe oNe wRoNg ! aHhH ! tHe CoMpReHeNsIoN aLrIgHt lAhX.. iTs aBt PoOr ppL caN hAvE haPpiNeSs.. iTs LAME. aFtEr xaMs ; waItEd FoR mR cHuA tO coMe.. wE hAd a MatHs rEmEdiaL aNd tHeN i wEnT hoMe aLoNe.. waLkiNg iN tHe RaiN makEs mE feEl moRe dOwN aNd LoNeLy.. i dIdNt kNoW wHy.. i FeLt iM liKe tHe xTrA aMoNg mY fRieNds ; i duN hAvE frIeNds ; i hAvE nTh ! rEaChEd hoMe ; it wAs pOuRiNg ! aIyA ! wHy i caMe hoMe sO fAsT ?! cOokEd mY owN luNcH aNd wAtChEd vCd.. aFtEr tT ; sHoWerEd aNd caMe oNliNE.. sEr wEe aNd mE pLayEd sTuPiD gaMeS tO pAsT tiMe.. haHa ! sO laMe ! tHeN aFtEr aLl tHosE sHiT ; oFfLiNe aNd WeNt tO dO hWk.. wOopEe ! hAd pIzZa wItH paPa.. wAtChEd vcD tiLl 9oo aNd wEnT tO dO soMe hWk aNd rEviSioN bEfoRe coMiNg oNliNe tO cHaT.. aFtEr bLogGiNg ; wEnT wAtChiNg tV aNd sTudYiNg..
for the past few days. i was suppose to study and study. but i dont seems to find the right mood to do that. i didnt know why. my mind seems to be so heavy. so heavy. it was like so full to squeeze anymore things in. but the problem is ; whats inside ? i dont know. im like having the mood to come online and watch tv only. i dont want to fail any subjects. i dont want. but there was nothing to push me to study earlier instead of squeezing everything together and end up being so stress. i want to prove to them ; my parents ; my bro ; my tution cher ; my friends that i can do well. and most importantly i want to prove it to myself. please god ; PLEASE. please let me go back to studying. i miss being the way i was. the quiet me. that period of time ; i was so into studying. but after that certain period of time ; i started changing to someone talktive and slacking. i hate it. i dont like. i dont want. i want the silence me. i rather be that way. i rather give myself a lot a lot a lot of stress. its much more better than anything else. god ; i pray to you. i pray that you let me the old me. im begging you. pretty please. thanks lots. ahem.