SYF

Thursday, April 21, 2005

10:32 PM

o421 .

SYF !

gOt uP aT 63o aNd tOoK gReAt eFfoRts tO MakE mY haIr iF nOt LaTeR sYf VeRy tHe MeSsY ! aFtEr gEtTiNg aLl rEadY ; i hEaD foR sChOoL aNd FiNd syLvIa aNd gOt tHe HaI tuN waN liaN reN vCd FroM hEr.. hAd eNg pErIoDs dOiNg suMmaRy.. sO bOriNg ! tHeN wAs sS.. oMigOsH ! wE hEaRd oNe sTuPiD soNg "suNdAy bLoOdY suNdAy" - sHiT soNg oNly.. WaNtEd tO faLl asLeep.. qUiCkly wOrE mY sHoEs BeFoRe gOiNg dOwN tO mUsIc RooM.. tHeN hAd CoMbiNe PrActIcE bEfoRe LuNcH.. tHeN eAt aNd cHaNgEd Le.. wE gOt tO kNoW tEcK wHyE sEc gOt siLvEr.. tHeN wE saId tHeY tHiS kiNd aLsO gEt siLvEr tHeN wE sUrE gEt goLd.. wE sCrEaMeD oUtsIdE tHe daNcE sTuDiO aNd BiLly gOaT aNd tT pNg oR peNg coMe sCoLd uS.. tHeN tT oLd LiM aLsO sCoLdEd uS.. wOopEe ! tHeN wE hAd CoMbiNe oNe MoRe TiMe aNd pAckEd tHe iNsTrUmEnTs aNd waItEd FoR tHe bUs.. wOo~ sBs bUs eH ! haHa ! tHeN rEaChEd tHeRe LikE sO eArLy.. taLkEd aNd kEpT gOiNg tO tOiLeT.. sAw a zHoNg ruaN gUy.. sEe aNd sEe.. hMm ; qUiTe HaNdSoMe lAhX.. tHeN sEe a zHoNg zHeN eRhU gUy ; gAgA ! hE`s aTtRacTivE ! tHeN wEnT rEhEaRsaL bEfoRe pErFoRmiNg.. sTaNd oUtsIdE aNd waItEd FoR oUr tUrN.. oMigOsH ! tHe zHoNg zHeN sEc POWER eH ! tHeIr XiaO sHeNg aNd Da sHeNg sO oBvIoUs.. tHeiR sEt piEcE ; NtH tO sAy lAhX ! wAs sO daMm NeRvoUs tHerE aNd dUnNo WhY i kEpT pRaiSiNg JiuNn YuaN.. haHa ! LOLS. tHeN oUr tUrN lE !! hMm ; pLayEd SoMe WroNg NoTeS aNd mY eyEs CaNt sToP moViNg aRd.. tHeN mUsT movE soMe MorE ; gOt a FeEliNg tT a LoT ppL laUgHiNg bAhX ! haHa ! i dUnNo.. dAryL aNd JiUnN yUaN pLayEd WroNgLy.. tHeN pErForM fiNisH lE ; wEnT mOvEd tHe YaNg qiN dOwN aNd rUshEd bAcK tO tHe haLl aNd aWaIt FoR tHe rEsuLtS.. wEnT ovEr aNd tOoK mY hP.. cHaTtEd wItH tHe ceLlo ppL tHeN rEsuLtS oUt Le !! oMigOsH ! tHeN iN fRoNt aLl gOT siLvEr aNd siLvEr.. wE sO sCarEd eH ! cOs hOrX ; wE sCaReD nO cHaNcE oF gEtTiNg siLvEr lE tHeN gEt bRoNzE ! tHeN tHeY aNnoUncEd :"Chinese Orchestra number 37. Chua Chu Kang Seconday - SILVER." oMigOsH ! wE sCrEaMeD ! tHeN a LoT oF ceLlo aNd bAsS ppL cRiEd cOs i ThiNk tHeY aiM tO gEt goLd bAhX.. tHeN dIsApPoiNtEd.. waItEd FoR tHe bUs.. bUt kePt tHiNkiNg tT wE gEt siLvEr LiKe tHe jUdgEs kE liaN uS tT wHy gAvE uS siLvEr.. mR lEe soMe MorE saId MaYbE wE jUsT pAsS bY 2 MaRkS tHeN lUcKy gEt siLVEr.. hAiX ! tHeN waItEd FoR tHe bUs sO loNg ; sO loNg.. sEe tT zHoNg rUaN gUy cLosEly ; eEe ! NoT haNdsoMe Le ! sTiLl tHiNk tT hUa zHoNg eRhU gUy MorE haNdsoMe.. wAs LaUgHiNg aNd taLkiNG hAPpiLy iN tHe bUs.. bUt mY mOoD sUdDeNly wEnT dOwN.. rEaChEd sChOoL ; kEpT eVeRytHiNg aNd hEaR oLd LiM aNd Mr TaN taLkEd tO uS.. a LoT ppL mEsSagE aNd aSkEd WaT cO gEt.. doTs doTs ! waHaHa ! Mr TaN soMe MorE saId wE dId vErY weLl.. -puke. waItEd FoR paPa tO coMe aNd FeTcH mE..

i felt my heart feeling so empty after the incident. recalling that the sec 4 passed out today le. i had the urge to cry. i felt my heart breaking ; crying for no reason. i didnt have this kind of weird feelings for a very long time. I HATE IT. ITS NOT NICE AT ALL.

rEaChEd HoMe ; iMmEdIaTeLy wAtChEd tV aNd hAd o2 sLicEs oF pIzZa aNd tHe cHiCkeN wiNg.. tHeN sHoWerEd.. cOuLdNt tHiNk oF hOw tO coNtinuE tT sTuPiD cHiNeSe CoMpO aNd caMe oNliNe.. cHaTtEd aNd dId SoMe bLoGgiNgS.. hAiX !

i`m so scared ; so scared. i cant let tt happen !!

i`m beginning to feel tt my heart doesnt have any pains ; love/hatred ; feelings. its numb. forver numb. maybe its better. the heart`s empty. and the you inside seems dead. does it shows i dun have anything more for you ?


o42 1o5.
marks the day. memories all ended.