dEaD mE..

Sunday, March 13, 2005

12:30 PM

MaRcH o7

wEnT hoMe aFtEr sEeiNg LiN`s gEo FiLe.. i FoRgOtTeN tO bRiNg.. rUsHeD bAcK aNd tOoK.. tOoK thiS lRt wHiCh i SaW soMeoNe LoOkEd sO mUCH liKE HiM wHeN tT gUy beNd dOwN.. toLd LiN aBt iT.. haHa! wOo~ hAd cHeM lEsSoN fIrsT.. gOt bAcK mY rEsuLtS.. oNe WoRd : LOUSY ! FaiLeD bAdLy eH! hAiX.. SHAGS!! dIdNt bOtHeR tO dO tB hWk.. cHaTtEd wItH saNdY aNd kEiTh.. aFtEr tT, eNg.. gO tHrU tHE wS haLfWaY tHeN wE haNd iN tO hEr cOs tOo maNy aNs lE.. yEaHs! tHeN dO fiLiNg.. gOt tO kNoW tHe eNg cMt rEsuLtS.. mY coMpO wRiTiNg NoT bAd eH! haHa! pE leSsoN sO sUcKs! wE gEt sPiLt tHeN bRoNzE mUsT dO juMpiNg.. siLvEr aNd gOld caN gEt tO pLaY fLoOrBaLl! NoT fAiR.. rEcEsS.. tHeN mT sO bOrEd.. sPeLliNg bRiNg tO tMl.. pReSeNtaTioN aFtEr sCh HoLidaYs.. wE dId LeTtEr wRiTiNg.. tHe MeNcY lEe sAid HaNd iN tMl.. sO wE taLkEd lOrX.. kaNa sCoLdiNg lOrX! wTf.. sHe FlaReD uP bUt wE aLsO hEcK.. MaThS lEsSoN.. wE gEt bAcK bOtH e aNd a MaThS paPeR.. dUn DaRe tO sEe.. hMm ; tOo mE tHe MarkS aLrIgHt oNly.. MeSsAgE MuM aNd MeIxI jiE tHe MaRkS.. aFtEr tT, gEo.. hAd sHoRt tEsT aNd wE hAvE tO wRitE tHe qNs cOs MiSs riN toLd uS tT tHe sChOoL gOt tHiS sAvE paPeR caMpaigN.. sO laMe.. pOoR sAy pOoR mAhX.. aIyO.. hAvE tO sTaY bAcK cOs tT MENCY LEE COMPLAIN! eEe! tHeN wEnT mAc hAvE luNcH.. weNt LoT oNe wItH jIa WeN foR a WhiLe.. bOugHt WaNg LeE HoM cD lE!!! waHaHaHa!! aNd gOt hoMe.. sAw tHE gUy wHo LoOkEd LiKe HiM aGaiN! saMe LrT aNd saMe sToP.. haHa! FaTe eH! bUt aLsO nOt HiM.. tHeN waLkEd hoMe aNd rEaLisEd tT gUy LiViNg iN tHe saMe bLoCk aS mE aNd hE waLkS tHe saMe rOutE aS mE.. hE sTaYs aT LvL o8 eH.. haHa! bUt i sCaReD hE tHoUgHt i wAs FOLLOWING hiM hoMe.. baThE aNd caMe oNliNe.. pLayEd gaMe aNd dId hWk aT tHe saMe TiMe.. oFfLiNe aT 8oo aNd hAvE LjS foR diNnEr wItH kOrX wHiLe wAtChiNg tV.. dId tHe cHiNeSe hWk.. aFtEr dOiNg aLl tHe hWk, caMe oNliNe aNd cHaTtEd.. wAtChEd tV aNd MuM`s HoMe eArLy ToDaY! wOo~ wOo~ haHa! sHowEd hEr mY MaThS paPeR.. hMm ; yEaHs.. sAfE..

MaRcH o8

hab ee bda-y dan iaL! smile s alwa ys. all th e best!


oMigOsH! i aM bRoKe! tOdaY dRaW tHe MoNeY tHeN aLaMaK! i WaNt FAINT!

tOdaY caN bE coNsidEr a hAbEe yEt BORING dAy FoR mE.. hAd e MaThS aS tHe FiRsT leSsoN oF tHe DaY.. NeW tHiNgS lEaRnT.. haHa! tHeN mT hAd sPeLliNg.. a MaThS wE coNtiNuEd FroM e MaThS bUt iS lEaRniNg o2 sUbjEcTs tOgEtHeR.. KiNda wEiRd.. rEcEsS! wEnT iT rOoM FoR gEo.. haHa! caL sO fuNnY! wAs a LiL bOrEd FroM LiSteNiNg tO miSs RiN.. dIsTrActEd! eNg pEriOd wEnT tO tHe LiBrArY.. hMm, pLayEd oUtSidE tHe LiBrArY wHiLe wAiTiNg.. jIa WeN aNd mE rUshEd tO tHe SoFa.. jIa WeN sToOd uP aNd tOoK mAg.. i LiE dOwN.. NEARLY gOt hEr aSs oN mY faCe.. waHaHa! heNg aRx! cMe wE dId FiLiNg aNd gOt bAcK oUr sS paPeR.. wOoPeE! FuLl MaRkS! XD tHiNk aBT 11 ppL iN oUr cLaSs gEr FuLl MaRkS.. aFtEr sChOoL, wEnT waLkEd aRd aNd saT aT tHe sTePs wItH jIa WeN aNd dRaNk waTeR wHiLe wAiTiNg.. wEnT bAcK cLaSs aNd taKe bAg.. pA.. SIANZ!! gEt tO rEleAsE eArLy cOs oUr cLaSs tHe pRaIsEs qUiTe a LoT.. haHa! wEnT LoT oNe wItH jIa WeN.. hAd mY diNnEr tHerE.. gOt a FrIgHt FroM LeNg FeI.. hEaD hoMe aNd oMigOsH! FiRdaUs, mY pRi sCh FreN sAw mE! hE wAs jUsT bEhiNd mE.. hE caLlEd aNd toLd mE.. NOT FAIR! i hAvE tO wAiT foR o2 wEeKs tHeN caN sEe HiM cOs gOt gaThEriNg.. waHaHa! CaNt wAiT.. baThE aNd caMe oNliNe.. dO tHiS aNd tT.. szE hUi aNd mE fLoOd jiE`s tAgBoArD.. yEaHs!! gOt soNg aT mY bLoG lE! haHa! aLl tHaNkS tO jiE.. heHe! wAtChEd tV aNd caMe oNliNe FoR a WhiLe.. dId hWk.. MuM hoMe eArLy.. sHe sCaReD mE.. haHa!

MaRcH o9

TIRED TIRED aNd WORST ! BOREDOM ! ! ! WTF ! ! !
sAw ToMmY sHeDdiNg tEaRs FoR a gUrx aT tHe pArAdE sQuaRe.. iT wAs tHe FiRst tiMe eH.. hOpE hE caN heaL hIs hEaRt sooN aNd dUn tUrN uP aNd bE liKe mE.. pHy; paPeR`a bAcK.. yEaHs, iTs eXpEctEd.. i jUsT pAssEd.. wTf.. i dIdNt dO mY bEsT.. aLl i caN dO iS bLaMe mYseLf FoR bEiNg sTupId, FoR nOt pAyiNg aTteNtioN aNd FoR nOt sTuDyiNg hArD bUt sLaCk.. hAiX.. hE wEnT tHrU tHe pApEr.. daMm bORED! i wAs taLkiNg.. i dIdNt dArE tO faLl asLeEp FoR fEaR tT aNy tEaChEr waLkEd pAsT aNd gEt sCoLdiNgS.. e MaThS LearNt nEw foRmuLa.. qUitE eAsY.. aFtEr tT eNg.. fUcK! dO rEpoRt aGaiN.. sIaNz haLF! i jUsT haTe iT! eArLy rEceSs.. hAd mY luNcH.. wAs FeeLiNg sLeEpY wHeN i wOkE uP tHiS mpRniNg.. waNtEd tO sLeEp sO mUcH! rEadiNG pErIoD, LiE oN tHe TabLe aNd nEaRLy feLl iNtO dEeP dEeP sLeep.. hAiX.. cHeM ; YUCKS! wAsNt pAyiNg aTteNtioN.. waHaHa! bUt i duN nEed tO gO foR tHe gEo tOuR aT tHe FarMiNg tHiNg.. cOs mY cMt tOO lOusY lE.. waHaHa! sO haBeE! sS pErIoD.. wOo~ nEw cHaPtEr.. tHe TiMe tOdaY pAssEd sO SLOW! aNd WORST WITH BOREDOM! i haTe tOdaY maN! daMm FuCk.. cO ; REGRETTED gG.. gEttiNg MoRe bOrEd.. eVeRydaY oNly pRaCtIcE syF soNg.. hAiX.. tOwArdS tHe eNd ; gOt MoOd sWiNgS aNd wAs rEsTleSs.. vErY tIrEd eH! i aM dyiNg! waItEd wItH XiN hUi FoR dUnNo WhO tO coMe oUt.. aFtEr tT, waLkEd wItH jIa WeN tO lOt oNe.. wE cHaTtEd aNd siNg! haHa! sO fuNnY.. bOugHt FoOd tO eAt aFtEr tT waLkEd aRd FoR a LiL wHiLe aNd hEad hoMe.. baThE aNd caMe oNliNe.. MoOd wAs rEaL daMm dOwN.. iTs bEeN soMe TiMe siNcE i hAd tHiS ugLy FeeLiNg.. i HaTe iT.. bUt i CaNt dO aNyThiNg.. cHaTtEd wItH szE hUi.. aLaMaK.. i toLd hEr NoT tO taLkEd aBt tHosE saDdiNg tHiNgS.. iN tHe eNd ; iT tUrNeD uP tO bE mE tHe oNe wHom cArRiEd oN.. i cOuLdNt sToP.. i waNtEd tO cRy.. i hAd tHe rUsH tO dEleTe oFf aLl uR mEsSagEs.. i waNtEd tO lEt yOu gO.. i hAd tHe rUsH tO diE.. hAiX.. oFfLiNe aNd wAtChEd tV.. NOT FAIR! wHy mUsT tHe gOoD oNe bE jaiLeD wHeN hE dId NtH wroNg?! SUCKS! eEe! dId hWk tHeN kEpT oN hEaRiNg LeE hoM soNg.. wOo~ wOo~ iTs NICE! waHaHa! eMoTioNaL! caMe bAcK oNliNe aNd cHaTtEd.. cRaPpiNg tO keEp mY miNd aWaY.. hAd a NicE cHaT wItH caL.. haHa! tHeN wRoTe TeSti FoR qIaN yuN.. rEaD tHe tEsTi FroM XiN hUi.. haHa! eNd uP laUgHiNg.. hAd aN eArLy sLeEp aT 113o.. dIdNt wAtChEd mY sHoW fiNisH.. sIaNz!

MaRcH 1o

tHe sPeLl tHaT wAs cAsTeD oN mE yEsTeRdaY - tHe tIrEdNeSs iN mE - hAs bEeN liFt oFf.. bUt dUnNo WhY tOdaY gOt sToMaChEs aNd oFteNs MaKe tRiPs tO tHe tOiLeT eH.. sUcKs MaN! MiSsEd eNg pErIoDs.. waHaHa! cOS gOT bOdY cHeCk uP.. wOopEe! hMm ; tHe NuRsEs tHiS yEaR bEtTeR.. wHeN iT wAs mY tUrN tO cHeCk eYesIgHt.. tHeN tHe NuRsE taLkiNg mAhX, sO i LiE oN tHe TabLe aNd sHe sAiD aIyO, wHy sO tIrEd`? LiKe gAvE bIrTh tO 1o cHiLdreN.. haHa! doTs doTs.. hMm ; eYesIgHt gOoD eH! heHe.. tHeN nEeD tO cHeCk BaCkboNe.. aLrIgHt lE.. waItEd FoR LiN aNd aIsYaH.. weNt tO nEw bLoCk aNd cHaNgEd.. hEaD bAcK tO cLaSs FoR sS.. dId FiLiNg aNd wS.. wA laU eH! hOiLdAyS sTiLl gOt tEsTs tO sTuDy ; pRojEcTs tO dO.. wTf! tHeN nEeD gO bAcK FoR tT sTupId cO! IDOIT! pHy LeSsoN wAs BORING! aLwAys wiLl bE bOriNg oNe.. sO nO nEeD tO sAy dE.. aCtUaLly i dUn waNt tO sLeEp eH.. i waNt pAy aTteNtioN.. bUt iN tHe eNd ; i cOuLdNt heLp iT bUt sLePt aGaiN.. rEcEsS! tHeN a MathS aNd rEadiNg.. aGaiN e MaThS.. nOw tHe MaThS pErIodS wEiRd wEiRd dE.. tEaCh a aNd e TogEtHeR.. dOts dOtS.. aFtEr sChOoL, waItEd oUtsIdE foR gEraLdiNe tHeY aLl dUnNo dO wAt.. jIa WeN gO oPeNeD tHe TraFfIc LigHt BoX thiNg tHeN caNt cLosE.. wOopEe! haHa! wEnT liBrArY aNd jIa WeN, Li PiNg aNd mE eNd uP pLayiNg tHerE.. tHe CoM aLl sO LOUSY dE.. LeFt aT aRd 3oo pLuS.. jIa WeN waNtEd tO eAt MaC bUt oN oNe aCcoMpaNy hEr eAt aNd sHe dIdNt eAt lE.. sIaNz haLf! weNt bPp wItH Li piNg.. feLt huNgRy! aTe LjS.. sHe toLd mE aBt tHe sTorY tT tHeY gOt cAugHt bY poLicE foR gaMbLiNg aT MSCP.. haHa! sO fuNnY! i kePt LaUgHiNg tiLl i wEnT tO tOiLeT! oMg! wE waLkEd aRd aNd dUnNo WaT tHe heLl gOt iNtO uS aNd wE kePt oN laUgHiNg NoN sToP.. waHaHa! LaMe! sAw yUaN tiNg tOo.. hMm ; wEnT hoMe aFtEr aLl tHe LaUgHtErs wErE sToPpEd aNd tHe MoUtHs wErE sOrE.. haHa! waLkEd iN tHe bIg dRoPleTs oF raiN.. iTs BeeN a LoNg tiMe siNcE i LaUgHeD sO haPpiLy aNd tOoK waLkS iN tHe raiN.. tHe raiN gOt hEaViEr.. tOo bAd rEaChEd hoMe eArLy.. iF gEt caUgHt iN tHe rAiN tHeN sHoIk.. haHa! wAtChEd "dI xIa TiE" vCd.. hMm ; NoT bAd! aNoThEr LovE sToRy.. tHeN qUicKly cAtCh tHe LaSt ePisodE oF tHe sHoW! sO nicE! hAiX.. nicE sHoWs ; SHORT eNdiNg.. caMe oNliNe.. kePt oN hEaRiNg jiE`s bLoG soNg aNd i sTaRtEd tO hAvE tHe FeeLiNg sHe sAiD tT tHe MeMoRiEs wiLl coMe bAcK.. tHe soNg jUsT rEpEaT aND rEpEaT.. aNd i gOt aDdiCtEd tO iT.. dUnNo WhY i feLt sO heLpLeSs wHeN i tAggEd szE hUi`s TaGbOaRd.. hAiX! wHy caNt i heLp My FrIeNds wHeN tHeY wErE aT tHe PoiNt oF NoWhERe tO tUrN.. bUt caN jUsT sEe tHeM gEt sAddEr eAcH dAy aNd dRoP tEaRs eAcH daY aNd eVeN bE a FaKe peRsoN.. i caN oNly teLl tHeM uSeLeSs wOrDs LiKe dUn cRy lAhX, dUn tHiNk sO mUcH, taKe cAre, i wiLl aLwAyS bE tHeRe FoR yOu.. eTc.. bUt tHeSe WoRds wErE liKe sO.. FAKE ? ? i dUnNo WaTs haPpeNiNg tO mE.. i`M liKe bEiNg bUriEd bY a WoRd LOVE ! i dUn WaNt.. i waNt tO sToP liKiNg aNyoNe.. bUt iTs jUsT sO hArd.. tHe tEaRs sToPpEd FloWiNg, tHe sMiLe sToPpEd sMiLiNg, tHe hEaRt sToPpEd bEaTiNg aNd tHe FeeLiNgs sToPpEd tHe FeeLiNgs tOwArDs eVeRytHiNg.. i aM nTh NoW bUt jUsT soMeoNe wHoM`s jUsT paSsiNg aNd dOiNg wAt gOd aSkEd mE tO dO.. hOpE tHe jOb caN bE doNe sooN.. aNd i wiLl lEaVE tHiS wOrLd.. LeAviNg tHiS coLd coLd wOrLd wItHoUt hAviNg tO bE sAd aNd wItHoUt sEeiNg yOu aNyMoRe.. hAviNg a DAMM FUCKING loNg DaY tMl.. sIaNz!

-pls bless tt my family would stay happy, healthy and at safe wherever they go. whatever they do. god pls bless them. i am willing to take all punishments or harsh works cos i am already urs to be torture. leave them alone. mess with me.-

MaRcH 11


habee eighteen birthday korz! may happiness be with you always and be successful in everything you do. take care lots. may u stay healthy always and may ur youth never ends. you are older le. dun always talk back to mum and papa.

hAd a LONG daY! eNg pEriOd.. dId tHe FiNaL fiLiNg aNd MaRkiNg oF wS.. aFtEr tT, wE gOt oUr pRogReSs rEpOrT cArd.. oMigOsH! gOt sO maNy 6o pLuS mArKs.. FuCk! a MaThS wAs nExT.. LeArNt coMpLeTiNg oF aQuaReS.. haHa! aLrIgHt lAhX.. mT leSsoN dId gRp WoRk.. daMm sIaNz eH! hAiX.. rEcEsS.. miSsEd cHeM.. wOopEe! sO haBeE! wHeN wE aBt tO gO bAcK tO cLaSs.. mR taN hEaRd soMeoNe wHiStLiNg.. tHeN hE sAiD iF tHe pErSoN duN aDmiT tHeN nO nEeD tO gO bAcK.. iN tHe eNd, rEaLly No oNe.. wE sAt iN tHe haLl aNd taLkEd.. haHa! fuN! eVeRyDaY liKe tT gOod.. e MaThS.. i mAdE tHe wHoLe cLaSs aNgRy eH! cOs i toLd mR cHuA tO gIvE hWk iF nOt wE bRiNg hOmE tHe bOoKs wAstEd.. tHeN hE rEaLly givE a LoT eH! sO maNy ppL aNgRy tHeN i cRiEd.. aHhH! wEnT foR LuNcH.. tHeN cO.. qUiTe bOrEd eH.. wE xcHaNgE aRx.. sEe cHoiR aNd baNd oNly.. tHeN gO foR diNnEr.. hAd wEsTerN fOoD.. NICE! tHeN bUy sWeEts aNd gO bacK foR cO pRaCticE.. hAd aN hoUr aNd wEnT oUtsIdE aNd wAiTeD foR paPa.. rEaChEd hoMe, eMpTy bAg.. tHeN sHoWeReD aNd wAtChEd vcD.. caMe oNliNe.. wOo~ kOrX`s hoMe aNd wIshEd hiM haBeE bdaY! bUt hE sO bAd! bEaT mY bUtT!!

gOt soMeThiNg FroM frIeNdsTeR:

There are many ways to be happy..
You can laugh your heart out over silly jokes,
have a good meal to satisfy your inner cravings,
do something that interest you,
get drunk totally to numb yourself,
or just simply acting like a clown to make
up for the long gone childhood memories of yours..
But does all these physical activities really cure
your heart over something that has once hurt you
so badly?

Ans: NO..

Conclusion: Face up to reality.. Time will heal all
wounds.. Trying to act happy only serves as a
superficial lie to everybody around you.. Being
genuinely happy doesn't require you to do things
to exude the real happiness in you.. Therefore ppl
can tell the difference of real or fake happiness..

P.S : szE hUi tHiS oNe eSp FoR yOu dE.. XD

MaRcH 12

MaNicUrE caNceLleD! sIaNz HaLf! gOt uP aT 11oo bY pHoNe caLl.. wAtChEd tV aNd aTe bIscUiTs.. aFtEr tT, hAvE mAc aNd wEnT tO sHoWeR aFtEr mY sHoW eNdEd.. cHaNgEd aNd wEnT caUsEwaY poiNt wItH MuM tO tRy oUt tHe MaNicUrE.. waHaHa! iN tHe eNd, tHe gUrX sAiD iTs fuLly BoOkEd BUt wHeN wE weNT iN iS eMpTy lOrX.. wTf! waLkEd waLkEd aNd bOugHt oNe uNiqUe sHiRt.. aCtUaLly waNt tO bUy mY cLotHe wHiCh caN bE a sKirT oR tUbE.. bUt DuN hAvE mY sIzE!! aHhHh! daMm nIcE eH! hAiX.. mUsT gO oThER sHoPs oF tT aNd sEe.. aFtEr tT, hAd LuNcH.. tHeN gO bUy tHe tOy FoR XiN cHeN.. bOugHt soMe piLloWs aNd LoT oNe.. tHe MaNicUrE tHerE aLsO fuLl lE.. oNe tHiNg wHiCh maDe mT aNgRY! MY NAIL BROKE! WTF! aRgHh! rEaChEd hoMe, tHeN dId a LiL hWk aNd wAtChEd tV.. hAd diNnEr tHeN sHoWerEd aT 1ooo aNd weNt oNliNe.. pLayEd mS aNd cHaTtEd.. wEnT tO sLeEp aT 12oo pLuS..