Wednesday, February 23, 2005 10:52 PM
its been like dunno how many mths or maybe coming to o1 year since i kept my eyes on you. i want to let you go. but each time i said so. i fail to do so. those words of mine were just saying for like fun? soft spoken words by you can make me raise up in the air or dropped down to hell?! those messages were still in the same place. i cant bring myself to erase off. if i do so. i will regret. and guess cry for days. haha. silly!! not having u ard the sch seems okays. guess i have gotten used to it. just pray for the best tt the coming o2 yrs for me in sch wont be sucky and hope i can pass n and o. and get out soon. hope by tt time i had let go of everything. but i wont forget you and the memories which were once created and will never repeat again. all the best to you. may happiness be with you always. take care.the feelings ferr u is fake or real. i have no idea. in a mess. i hate to pretend. i just can stop. i need just ur lil tt concern and care from u. nth else. i am content enough just this way. i`m praying for tt day to come. hope it would. unless god changes my fate. and continue hating me. no choice. i just have to accept it even i am unwilling. i cant tell god to stop hating me. cos its his choice. my life is in his hands forver even i die.