Thursday, January 20, 2005 5:07 PM
hAd mY sHoWeR aNd wAtChEd tV.. kOrX caMe HoMe lE aNd aCcoMpaNy mE wAtCh tHe CaRtooN.. FiNisHed lE, i wEnt aNd hAvE mY sLeEp aFtEr hEaRiNg a bIt oF 933..
16 JaNuaRy o5
woKe uP pReTtY eArLy jUst tO cAtCh My FaVoUriTe sHoW aGaiN.. tHoUgH iTs rEpEaT oNeS bUt i tHiNk iTs WoRtH iT.. jUsT liKe gEtTiNg tO kNoW yOu aS soMeoNe i DuNnO tiLl soMeoNe wHoM bEcoMeS iMpoRtaNt tO mE.. hMm, MaYbE oNly FaTe bRiNgS pPl tO mEeT eAcH oThEr.. tHosE wItHoUt FaTe jUsT pAsS bY eAcH otHeR aNd cArRy oN wItH tHeiR NoRmaL liFe.. sEe tHe sHoW wItH MuM.. bUT sHe NeVeR sEe FiNisH cOs sHe NeEd gO tO gRaNdpA hOusE dO tHiNgS aRx.. sO i wAtChEd aLoNe aNd i cRiEd aGaiN.. cRiEd aT tHe SaMe tHiNg ; saMe sToRy ; saMe LiNe tHeY sAiD.. haHa! hMm, i aM nUtS aRx.. saMe tHiNg cRy oVeR aGaiN aNd aGaiN.. bUt i FiNd iTs WoRtH iT.. tHe sHoW rEaLly vErY nicE! HoW i WisH i CaN wAtCh aGaiN.. wHiLe wAtChiNg i cRy aNd cRy.. LuCkiLy No oNE aRouNd mE.. iF nOt i DuN dArE tO cRy dE.. geEz, aFtEr WaTcHiNg Le.. sMs XiN hUi aNd wAiTeD foR MeiXi jIe tO coMe aRx.. sHe`s LaTe aGaiN.. hAvE tUtioN aNd sHe tEaCh mE aLl tHe a aNd e MaThS qNs i DuNnO hOw tO dO.. hMm, i vErY sCaRe i FaiL eH! tHe bAsiC sTuFf i CaNt haNdLe aLrEaDy.. WaT morE tO sAy NeXt tiMe dE.. hUh?! i DUN WANT HAVE MATHS LE! i loSiNg iNtErEsT iN iT lEhX! diE aRx! aT 245 eNd lE.. tHeN cHaNgEd aNd wEnT oUt.. No oNe LaTe! haHa! wEnT wEsT MaLl aNd bOugHt tHe sTuFfs tO pUt oN sChOoL tabLe tO dEcOrAtE.. woOpEe! i WaNt tO dEcOrAtE nicE nicE oNe! bLeSs mE.. aFtEr i dOnE wItH iT wiLl taKe pIc aNd pUt hErE aNd yA givE CoMmeNtS oKiE`? wEnT waLk waLk.. aTe LuNcH.. XiN hUi pUt hEr bAg tHeRe tHeN wE sO sCaRe pPl tAke eH! tHeN wE eAt FiNisH wEnT tO loT oNe.. FiNd tHiS aNd tHaT.. sAw zHi YiNg aTteNdiNg hEr sIs sHoP aRx.. wE bOugHt eaRriNgS lOrX.. hMm, wE cUt pRicE aRx.. haHa! WhoLe bRaiN oNly hAviNg tHe eAgE tO TakE nEopRiNtS! sHoP aNd sHoP lE, wEnT hoMe lE.. dO hWk aNd tRiEd tO sTuDy gEo tEsT.. caNt gO iN eH.. tHeN caMe oNliNe.. wA lAu! daMm aNgRy eH.. cOs MuM aSkEd mE aTe DiNnEr aRx, tHeN i wAs bUsY.. aSkEd hEr tO wAiT.. tHeN kOrX gO sHoUt aT mE.. WAT THE FUCK! NoT iN gOoD mOoD tHeN taKe iT oUt oN mE.. wAt tHe HeLl! i NoT uR tOy oR wAt eVeR sHiT lOrX.. iDoiT! aRgH!! wEnT hAvE diNnEr.. aTe FaSt FaSt aNd wEnT bAcK tO coM.. aCtUaLLy i NoT tHaT aNgRy aT kOrx lAhX.. bEcaUsE aFtEr tHaT i wEnT aSk HiM soMeThiNg Le.. haHa! LaMe eH.. kEpT pLaYiNg aNd i LeveL uP lE.. tHeN oFfLiNe aNd wEnT WaTcH sHoW.. sTuDy tEsT aNd sMs tiLl i sLeEp..
17 JaNuaRy o5
ToDaY rAtHeR iN a MoOd tO mAkE loTs oF noIsE.. sOrRy tO mY cLaSsMaTeS aRx.. gUeSs tMl i WoNt bE iN tHiS mOoD lE.. bEcAusE oF soMeThiNgS.. HEYS ; YOU KNOW YOU SUCKS A LOT? ACTUALLY I ALSO DUNNO WHO I AM REFERING TOO BUT I JUST WANT SCOLD BAD WORDS OUT!!AHHHHHHHHHH!! HaLfWaY waLkiNG tO sChOoL rAiN bUt LiN aNd mE dUn cArE aRx.. haHa.. vErY fuN eH! hOpE gEt SiCk FaStEr aRx aNd bEsT diE! hAd cHeM tHe FiRsT tHiNg.. waHaHa! nicE eH! gOt LoTs oF joKeS bEiNg MadE.. iF eVeRy lEsSoN liKe tHaT gOoD.. eNg aLsO vErY fuNnY.. aNd i wAs taLkiNg aNd LaUgHiNg qUiTe a LoT.. geEz, tHeN pE vErY nicE.. dO ruNniNG.. haHa! hAd eArLy rEcEsS aNd FoUnD oUt tHiNgS.. woOpEe! haHa! tHeN aTe bReAkfAsT aNd LuNcH.. sAt wItH sHi TiNg aNd sYaHriL.. taLk taLk a bIt.. zHi YiNg heLpEd jIA WeN aNd mE pUt tHe pLaTeS.. haHa! sO goOd eH.. wEnT cHaNgE.. hAiX.. uNluCky cOrReCt lE.. wEnT bAcK aNd hAvE mT.. haHa! sO fuNnY! wHeN tEaChEr NoT aRouNd i sAiD soMeThiNg.. pS eH! haHa! hAd sPeLliNg aNd dIdNt hEaR LeSsoN aRx.. aFtEr tHaT aTe tHe sWeEts XiN hUi aNd mE bOugHt.. wA lAu! sO fAsT aLl fiNiSh lE.. cOs oF tHe ppL aLl waNt mAhX.. i WaNt tAkE pIctUrE wItH kEitH.. tHeN hE duN waNt.. hAiX.. sIaNz haLf! MaThS lEsSoN aLsO dIdNt rEaLly hEaR.. taLk taLk wItH LeNg FeI.. hE doNt waNt aDmiT! haHa.. tHeN gEo tEaChEr NeVeR coMe bUt sTiLl gOt tEsT.. LuCkiLy iS oPeN bOoK aRx.. tHeN dO aNd dO lE.. taLk wItH shi TiNg aRx.. CaNt saY mUcH.. aFtEr sChOoL wEnT hoMe iMmEdiAteLy wItH gEraLdiNe.. wHiLE waLkiNg HoMe i hAviNg heAdaChEs.. tHeN gOt fUnEraL tHeRe aRx.. qUiCkLy waLkEd pAss bUt i sAw tHe CoFfiN.. hAiX.. bAtHe aNd dO hWk.. dRaNk hOt hOt miLo aNd wEnT sLeEp lE.. tHe cRaMpS caNt sTaNd iT maN! MuM caMe hoMe.. tOoK mEdiciNe aNd aRx ; sHe toLd mE tHaT iF yOu bOrRoW froM uR FreN tHe tHiNG aRx NeVeR rEtUrN wiLl aLwayS hAvE cRaMpS.. lOoKs tRuE.. tHeN i tMl gOiNg rEtUrN lE.. hOpe i CaN rEmEmbEr.. tHeN cHaTtEd aNd wEnT oNliNe.. cHaT aNd cHaT.. hAd diNnEr.. gOt tO kNoW soMeThiNg wHiCh bRoUgHt mY mOoD daMm dOwN.. wTf.. bUt CaNt bLaMe HiM lAhX.. hAiX.. hMm, kOrx caLlEd aNd i hEaR wHaT hE toLd MuM aRx.. gEez, hE waNna bUy sHiRt.. 5o pLuS dE eH! tHeN kOrX cALl sO maNy TiMeS.. aLaMaK.. tHeN i cHaT cHaT wItH hiM.. haHa! aSkEd HiM bUy mE.. bUt hE woNt.. wEnT oFfLiNe aNd wAtChEd tV tiLl 945.. wA lAu WaNt usE coM paPa gO sCaN iT.. waItEd aNd waItEd.. tHeN pLaYed MapLe aNd cHaTtEd.. hAiX.. i aM FeeLiNg LiKe i aM oVeR a HoT hOt FirE.. i aM sUfFeRiNg a LoT liKe tHaT eH.. i dUnNo WhAt tHe HeLl haPpeN.. i aM LiKe bEiNg _____ bY sO maNy pPl.. i rEaLli WoNdEr WhY.. i aM tRyiNg My bEsT tO cHaNgE mYseLf.. iS iT fOr tHe SaKe oF oThErS oR mYseLf.. i dUnNo aNyThiNg.. hE madE a pRoMisE aNd rEaLly rEaLly rEaLly hOpE hE woNt bReaK iT oR jUsT pRoMisE mE foR fuN.. iF rEaLly LiKe tHaT aRx ; i tHiNk i jUsT diE caN lE.. gOd bLeSs mE aRx.. hAiX.. i rEaLly WaNt diE.. i toLd szE hUi aBt tHiS tHeN sHe sAiD i sIaO.. wiLl mEhX.. i FiNd iT SHOIK eH! haHa! laMe! tHeN pLaYeD tiLl 12oo pLuS aNd wEnT sLeEp lE.. hMm, nEeD 45% moRe tO LvL!! wEeeEeEeEeEeEeE! i CaNt wAiT eH! LaY oN tHe bEd FoR sO loNg - ToSsiNg hErE aNd tHerE.. i CaNt gEt tO sLeEp..
18 JaNuaRy o5
wHiLe waLkiNg tO tHe LrT sTaTioN tHe bReEzE wAs cOoLiNg! haHa! nicE eH! tHesE feW dAyS aLwAyS hAvE tHiS kiNd oF wiNd.. sHoiK! waLkEd tO sChOoL wItH LiN.. waNtEd tO dO o3 tHiNgS bUt iN tHe eNd aLl nEvEr dO oNe.. haHa! dUnNo WhY tOdAy mY mOoD sWiNg hErE aNd tHerE.. hAd e MaThS fIrsT aNd iTs DaMm bOrEd.. cOs tEaChEr NeVeR coMe aNd wE nEed dO wS.. tHeN sO tIrEd.. gOt cRaMpS.. paiN liKe sHiT! i wAs FeeLiNg sO sLeEpY.. bUt MaNagEd tO coMpLeTe tHe hWk.. tHeN wAs Mt.. My MoOd wEnT uP.. aNd wAs TaLkiNg tHrUoUt tHe LeSsoN.. cOs iTs FreaKiNg BORING! eEe! tHeN hAvE a MaThS.. aLaMaK.. mY mOoD sWiNg caMe aGaiN aRx.. tHeN soLvE oNe qNs tiLl waNna diE lE! aHhHhHh! rEcEsS aNd i wAs dAMm qUieT.. i sEe eVeRyoNe, i NoT haPpY aRx! wHiLe jIa WeN tHeY aLl bUyiNg fOoD, Li PiNg aNd mE taLkEd wItH gEorgE aBt HiM aNd tHe aNotHeR gUy FrieNdsHiP aRx.. tHeN i sAid tiLl i WaNt tO cRy.. i dUnNo WhY bUt i heLd bAcK mY tEaRs.. i FeLt sO fEd uP aNd waLkEd aWaY.. rEcEivEd a sMs FroM gEorGe aRx ; tHeN hE aSkEd mE nOt tO be aNgRy.. i rEpLiEd aNd toLd HiM i wAsH mY haNdS oFf eVeRyThiNg bEtWeeN tHeM.. i CaNt bE bOtHeReD.. i sAw soMeThiNg aRx ; bUt i duNno iS i sEnSiTivE oR wHaT lAhX.. bUt iTs LiKe aBt mE dE.. hAiX.. daMm sAd LiKe tHaT.. wEnT uP tO haLl.. sEe jIa WeN siNg tHe soNg i LaUgHed a LiTtLe aRx.. hMm, iTs KiNda siLly.. hAvE gEo.. tEaChEr aLsO nEvEr CoMe.. dO sTupId wS.. NoT nicE tO dO oNe.. sO bLoOdY aSs.. tHeN LoUiS oN mUsIc hEaR.. nicE.. eNg pEriOd i FeLt sLeEp oNly.. tHeN cMe sO bOrEd aRx.. bUt TiMe paSs vErY fAsT.. hAd LuNcH wItH jIa WeN.. aFtEr tHaT waLkEd aRouNd aT NeW bLoCk LeVeL o3.. woOpEe! vErY nicE eH! mY mOod wEnT uP.. haHaHa!! wE sO haPpY eH! geEz, tHeN wEnT bAcK cLaSs.. wE kEpT oN taLkiNg aBt thE tWo J`s eH! oMigOsH! wE mIsS tOuCh tO sEe tHe aNotHeR J! hAiX.. pItY eH! dId tHe gOaL cHaRt FoR pC lEssoN.. gOaLs tO aChieVe oN sChOoL, FaMiLy, seLf-iMpRovEmEnT aNd FiTnEsS.. FoR sChOoL iS jUsT tHe saMe oLd tHiNg - eXaMs aLl thEsE.. FiTneSs i WroTe tO losE wEigHt.. haHa! seLf iMpRoVeMeNt iS tO cHaNgE eVeRy siNgLe tHiNg oF mE aNd bE a bEtTer pErsoN.. tHe CoMpLeTioN i WroTe SuMtHiNg sTupiD bAhX! haHa! i sAiD maYbE i diE, i aLsO woNt bE aBLe tO rEaCh tHiS gOaL.. wEnT oFf aT 33o.. aT tHaT MoMeNt, soMeThiNg ToOk pLacE aNd i dEcIdEd tO FoLloW tHaT tHiNg.. NOT TO TALK TO SOMEONE AND PRETEND I DUNNO THAT SOMEONE! HOPE I CAN DO IT! WaNtEd tO gO loT oNe bUt wHeN mAc.. WaNt dO hWk bUt NeVeR.. iN tHe eNd wE taLkEd aNd taKe pIcS.. wHeN bAcK tO sChOoL cOs waNt sEe soMeoNe aRx.. bUt DuN hAvE lE.. iN tHe eNd wE pLaYed WaTeR nEaR tHe FiEld wItH KuN taT aNd wEn cHieH.. jIa WeN wAs tHe oNe wHoM iS tHe MOST wEt.. haHa! sO fuN! sHoUt aNd sHoUt.. wEnT tO loT oNe.. wHiLe wAiTiNg FoR bUs, jIa WeN toLd mE soMeThiNg wHiCh madE mE haD a LiTtLe FeEliNg oF jEaLoUsLy eH! gOt soMe FuNnY tHiNgS haPpeN.. haHa! oMigOsH! gOt jIa WeN`s CoMiC.. waLkEd FoR a wHiLe aNd sAw gEaLdiNe wItH tHe aNotHeR sEc tHrEe dEniSe.. wEnT hoMe.. taLkEd aBt tHiS aNd tHaT wItH Li PiNg.. hOpE woNt coMe tRuE aRx.. rEaChEd HoMe, FeEliNG MoOdY.. hAd bIsCuiTs.. bAtHe aNd waItEd tO usE CoM cOs aRx, mY nEigHbOuR tHe KiDs CoMe uSe aRx.. waT tHe.. hAvE diNnEr.. bUt aTe a LiTtLe biT oNly.. wEnT oNliNe aNd cHaTtEd.. hAiX.. WHY TURN OUT LIKE THIS?! wHeN wAtChEd tV aT 9oo.. aFtEr tHe sHoW gO bAcK coM aNd cHaT.. pLaYeD mS.. hMm, i aM siNkiNg dOwN morE aNd morE eAcH dAy paSs.. vErY tirEd eH.. i WaNnA lay iN hOsPiTaL.. bEcaUsE i tOo tIrEd lE.. i WaNt a rEsT.. hAiX.. wAtEvEr lE lAhX.. wTf LiFe iS! pLaYeD tiLl LeveL uP aNd wEnT wAtCh mY sHoW aNd sMs a bIt aRx.. i rEaLly wIsH caN wAsH mY haNdS oFf tHe TwO gUyS eH! tHeY aRx ; HOPELESS lE.. wAs abLe tO wEnT iNtO sLeEp FaSt.. tHaTs gReAt!
19 JaNuaRy o5
aNoThEr BAD dAy FoR mE!? hAiX! i DUN WANT GO SCHOOL aNyMorE.. i DuN waNt sEe aLl tHosE pPl.. i DUN WANT! hAiX!! aTe soMe bIsCuiTs bEfOrE hEaDiNg FoR sChOoL.. aT bP sTaTioN ; LoUiS aNd yEw FaI tHerE.. wA sEh! yEw Fa poN sChOoL eH.. aIyO.. wEnT sChOoL tOgEtHeR wItH TwO cOupLeS wItH LiN.. tHeN sAW tHe cLoUdS.. oMigOsH! sO daMm fReaKiNg nicE eH! liKe rAiNbOw LiKe tHaT ; wiLl gO ovEr tO tHe aNoThEr sIdE dE! pReTtY pReTtY cLoUdS! waHaHa! wOoPeE! rEaChEd sChOoL aNd wEnT tO cLaSs cHaNgE tabLeS aRx.. tHeN wEnT bAcK.. hAd pHy FiRsT.. LuCkiLy tEaChEr NoT hErE aRx.. iS aNotHeR teMp tEaChEr coMe.. i uNdErsTaNd eH! hMm, i rAtHeR tHiS oNe tEaCh lOrX.. hAiX.. aFtEr tHaT wAs E mAtHs aRx.. tEaChEr wEnT tHrU qNs aNd a FeW a MaThS oNe.. i gOt WroNg eH! sO fEd uP.. dO fOr sO loNg, iN tHe eNd gEt WroNg.. wHaTs tHiS?! rEgReTtEd taKiNG a MaThS LiKe tHaT.. bIo aND aRt aLsO nOt gOoD.. hAiX! aFtEr tHaT eNg, wE dId gRouP wRoK aRx.. tHeN tEaChEr cAugHt mE taKiNg.. sO wHeN sTaNd aT oNE CorNeR.. i aLsO dUn cArE hEr.. wEnt bAcK tO sEaT.. cOpY eVeRyThiNg FroM bOaRd aNd hEaD fOr rEcEsS wItH jIa WeN aRx.. waLkEd hErE aNd tHerE.. i TRIED mY bEsT nOt tO cArE hiM aNd wEll, gUeSs i dId iT.. bOugHt SoMe fOoD aNd muNcHeD.. hAd rEadiNg pEriOd.. rEad aNd rEaD.. tEaChEr toLd uS abT oNe toUr aRx.. tO kNoW morE aBt iNdIaNs.. tHeN gO tHerE wiLl sEe tHe pPl pIeRcE tHeIr bOdY aLl tHesE sTuFfs aNd gOiNg tO tHeiR tEmpLe.. cOsT $13.. WaNtEd tO gO bUy FiNd LiKe WaStE tiMe, sO dRoPpEd tHe idEa lE.. cHeM lEssoN.. sTaRtiNg oKiE lAhX.. bEcAusE gOt FeW gUyS MaKiNg sTuPiD coMmeNtS aBt tHe saFeTy pErCaUtioNs.. hMm, bUt tHe LeSsoN bEcaMe bOriNg.. aNd i waNtEd tO sLeEp.. My MiNd wAsNt iN tHe cLaSsRooM lE.. soMeWhErE oUt tHerE.. aFtEr tHaT sS.. cOpiEd LoTs oF nOtEs.. bUt tHiNk i DuN eVeN uNdErsTaNd a siNgLe tHiNg lOrX.. hAiX.. wAs reLeAsEd o5 MiNs eAriLeR.. hAd LuNcH.. tHeN wEnT waLkiNg aRouNd tHe ScHooL.. gO laTe FoR cO.. wEnT sHoW szE HuI wHosE tHaT gL gIrL aRx.. haHa! hEr CoMmEnTs oN hEr sO fuNnY eH! tOdaY aLl tHe sEc oNeS caMe aRx.. tHeN tEaCh tEaCh jUniOr.. bOrEd sTuFf.. jiE leFt EaRiLeR.. JuNiOrS leFt lE.. wEnT hAd pRaCticE wItH tEaCheR.. nEw SoNg.. eEe! sO hArd dE! hAiX.. wAsNt iN a MoOd aT aLl bEcaUsE oF oNe tHiNg aRx.. rEaLly dUnNo WhaT haPpeN eH! hAiX.. i rEaLly WaNt tO kNoW.. i WaNt tO kNoW wHaT eXaCtLy haPpeNeD.. hAiX!
-i want to know what were the reasons that cause this change between us. what the hell you heard. fake stuffs. fine! but if i can get to know all those reasons, i want to know lahz. but the prob is you are AVOIDING me eh. therefore i do the same thing lorz. pretending not to know you at all. even the smallest thing about you. if this is what you want me to do - avoid and not to talk even not knowing you, i will do it. if this makes you feel better or whatever thing, i just do it! if this friendship is mean to be broken because of stupid stuffs then its a pity but.. i really dont want arx. i dunno what to do anymore. i am not sure if i sensitive or what and keep on thinking you avoiding me. but its so OBVIOUS! i also dunno if you were come here and read this entry ; esp this small portion. but i doubt you will. even if you come you also wont know its YOU. pls god! stop making fun of me! pls! beg you arx! i dun want this kind of fucking hell life. i want to change but its hard. i dun want live anymore. take me away.-
tHeN LeFt tHe sChOoL wItH Li PiNg.. bUt sHe gOiNg LoT oNe.. sO nEvEr tAg aLoNg.. wEnT hoMe wItH eLeNa aNd YibiN.. eLeNa`s SiCK eH! mUsT taKe cArE eH.. tHeN cHaTtEd aLl tHe WaY wItH YibiN.. sHe vErY fuNnY eH.. iNdEeD vErY haPpY gO lUcKy dE.. tHeN sAid bUaIs tO hEr aNd waLkEd HoMe aLoNe wItH aLl tHosE wOrRy tHoUgHts oF miNe.. gOt HoMe, saW tHe tHiNgS muM pUt oN mY bEd.. oNe sHiRt, eArRiNgS aNd hP sTuFfS.. wAtChEd tV.. wHeN MuM caMe bAcK i toLd hEr i DuN liKe tHe hP cOvEr aNd kEycHaiN aRx, sHe FlaReD uP aNd sCoLdEd mE.. wAt tHe FuCkiNg HeLl! iDoiT.. sHoW mE aP! FuCk oFf lAhX! bEcaMe MoOdY.. taLk tO hER WANNA VOMIT!! tOdaY mY daY bAD eNoUgH lE, gO hoMe CaNt hAvE pEacE aLsO.. gO diE lAhX!!! aFtEr sHowEr, rEaLisEd i LOST THE TWO DOLLAR HEART SHAPE MONEY!!! OMG!!!! i kEpT oN sEaRcHiNg aNd sEaRchiNg.. wA lAu! sO uNluCkY.. rEaLly LoSt lE.. hAiX.. sAd MaN! tHaT oNe MaRviN dO aNd givE mE dE.. tHeN soMeMorE iS MONEY eH! hEaRt pAiN! tHeN vErY fEd uP.. nEarLy cRiEd.. wEnT oNliNe aNd pUt mY a MatHs HwK asidE.. nO mOoD tO dO.. hMm, CoNtiNuEd tYpiNg mY eNtRy aRx ; i cRiEd HaLfwaY.. bEcaUsE oF tHaT pRoB.. i rEaLly dUnNo WhY aRx.. tHeN hAvE diNnEr.. caNt FiNisH.. FeeL liKe VoMiTiNg eH.. usEd CoM tiLl 9oo aNd wEnT wAtCh sHoW! sO sAd!! wAs cRyiNg iN mY hEaRt.. wEnT bacK tO coM.. tHeN cHaTtEd wItH szE HuI.. aSkEd hEr heLp mE dO soMeThiNg.. hMm ; i VERY SCARE EH! BLESS ME! tHeN tHe aNoThEr pErsoN coMe pIssEd mE oFf aGaiN! wTf! sHaLl nOt sAy aRx.. CaN diE! iDoiT maN! ALL GO DIE NOW!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!