Friday, December 24, 2004 4:48 PM
21 dEcEmbEr 04, uPseT
MeT tHeM aNd i wAs tHe LaTesT.. wEnT aNd haVe bReaKfasT.. i jUz dRaNk haLf a cUp oF tEa.. iT tAsTe WeIrD.. bUt aCtUaLly i aM tHe oNe aRx.. cOs i daMm NeRvoUs .. haviNg sToMacHes.. wEnT foR sChooL, tHeN jIe coMiNg LaTe cOs sHE WeNt tO sEe dOcToR.. jIe, MusT taKe ToNs aNd ToNs oF caRe eH.. DriNk MorE waTeR iF noT vErY eAsY tO faLl iLl aGaiN.. eVeN iF YoU duN haVe hiM bY uR sIdE.. bUt tHeRe`s stiLl aLl uR frIeNds.. cHeEr uP`!! =] cO sTaRtEd, bUt i wAs aLrEadY kiNd oF sLaCkiNg.. pRactIcE tiLl maD.. tHeN wEnT oUt aND cHiT cHaT wItH cHrIspiN aNd rUi PiNg.. cHiN yaNg hAd hIs aUdItioN aLrEadY.. wEnT ovEr aNd aSkEd hiM LoTs oF qNs.. oMigOsH.. tHeN saT tHeRe aNd sLaCk.. sWeE sIaNg aNd oNe gIrL, dUnNo HoW tO sPeLl hEr NaMe.. tHeY FigHtiNg sEh!! haHa!! daMm FuNnY.. sWeE sIaNg gEt bEaT tiLl, aIyo.. wEnT oUt aNd sEe sEe.. LuNcH bReaK.. wEnT MaC aNd FiNd tHeM.. haD a sPriTe aNd HaMbUrGeR.. YucKs.. No apPeTitE tO eaT aT aLl.. FeeLiNg LiKe sHiT! jIe caMe Le.. tHeN wE pRacTicEd a bIt.. tHeN sHe wEnT iN aNd haD hEr aUditioN.. sAt oUtsIdE wItH cHiN YaNg aNd taLkEd.. wEnT iN, wA pIaNg! sHiT is aLl i CaN sAy foR mY pErfoRmaNcE.. dUn tHiNk mR lEe iS haPpY wItH miNe pErfoRmaNcE.. tHeN CaNt aTteNd syF lo!! wEnT tO cO rooM, tHeN jIe, siMiN, XuE LiNg, rUi PiNg, sOoK eE aNd mE saT aT tHe dOoR aNd gOsIp aNd taLkEd sEcRets.. LoTs aNd LoTs of thiNgs tO saY.. haHa.. bUt vErI fuNnY.. cOs sImiN tHe rEaCtioN vErI fuNnY! wHeN yOu haVe sToP laUgHiNg, sEe hEr stiLl caN coNtiNue.. tHeN wE wEnT oUt aNd cOntiNued.. YaO sHeNg aNd hIs FrIeNds wErE pUsHiNg tHe caRt sO fasT, tHeN sUddeNly CRASH! wE wErE aLl laUgHiNg.. tHeN thEy hEad FoR tHe aUdiTioN.. LeaviNg jIe aNd mE.. toLd hEr soMe tHoUgHts oF miNe.. FiNd tHaT thIs wOrLd is rEaLly vErI bIg! LoTs oF dIffEreNt kiNd oF ppL livE hErE.. hAiX.. iTs reaLly hArd tO figUre oUt iF tHe pErsoN is gOod oR bAd! wHaT reaLly LiEs iNsIdE hiM oR hEr.. vErI sCaRe nExt tiMe tHeRe`s No tRuE gUy iN tHIs wOrLd FoR mE tO lovE aNd hE lovEs mE.. FeaR oF thIs sTaRts tO gRoW iN mE.. aFtEr thIs sO caLl cHaT, rEaLisEd LoTs oF sTuFf aNd tHe bLuR vIsioN FeeLiNgs iN mE tHosE FeW daYs aFtEr kNoWiNg thIs aNd tHaT.. i aM qUiTe cLeAr Le.. hMm.. aT LeasT i FeeL mUcH mUcH bEtTeR.. MaYbE aT tHaT MoMeNt, aLl tHe FaKe tHiNkiNgs wAsHed tHrU mY miNd.. aNd i gOt coNfusEd.. haHa!! rEaLly gLad gOt thIs taLk ToDaY! tHeN cHaT wItH jIa WeN tHeY aLl.. i kePt oN saYiNg gUaN liNg eXtra.. cOs jUsT noW ppL pLaYiNg tHe PiaNo tHeN hE saT tHeRe aNd bLocK.. tHeN hE saId hE's LeaRniNg.. beLievE hiM caN dIe! tHeN wE wEnT waLk waLk.. XuE LiNg sUddeNly caMe aNd hIt mE, sCaRed mE! bOugHt ciNderaLla sTorY vCd.. wow! waIt tiLl sO loNg!! aFtEr a WhiLe, wEnT hoMe Le.. waItEd 1o MiNs FoR tHe LrT.. wasTiNg mY tiMe.. oN tHe LrT, rEaLly wAs iN deEp tHoUgHts.. hAiX.. i wAs LiKe a FooL.. i aSkEd mYseLf tHaT qNs bUt i dUnNo.. dUn teLl mE iTs NoT aNyMoRe`?? tHeN batHe aNd usEd tHe coM.. tHaT MuM caMe aNd saY mE thIs aNd tHaT.. hEaR Le aLsO fEd uP.. FcUk lAhX!! sTuPid.. aFtEr tHaT, cHaTtEd.. hMm.. FeLt sO wHaT eH! dUnNo WhaT woRd tO saY thE feeLiNg.. soMeone - tHiNk CaNt saY tHe NaMe qNs mE.. tHeN tHe WaY hE aSkEd tHe qNs wAs LiKe sCoLdiNg mE.. fCuk lAhX! rUbbIsH MaN!! wAs WoNdEriNg iF i sHLd cHat wItH cHiN YaNg.. tHeN hE caMe aNd saId hI lE.. haHa! iT wAs nIcE.. sKiPpEd diNnEr.. ToDaY nEvEr rEaLly eaT aNyThiNg.. tHeN cHaTtEd tiLl 9oo pLus.. tHeN sTaRtEd sMsiNg Le.. wAtChEd tV.. whiLe waItiNg FoR mY show tO dO, caTcH a gHost movIe.. tHeN gOt sMs coMe iN.. sCaRed Me.. wEnT tO sLeEp aT 1225, fOrGeTtiNg aLl tHe uNhaPpY stufF tHaT haPpeNed tOdaY..
22 dEcEmbEr 04, Not bAd
gOt oUt oF tHe housE eAriLeR jUsT tO bUy sWeEts.. tHeN dUn hAvE whaT i waNt.. wEnT oFf tO sChooL.. rEaChEd tHeRe tHe eaRiLesT.. bOugHt sWeEts.. tHeN wAitEd.. wEnt maC.. tHeN aTe aNd taLkEd.. XiN hUi caMe wItH hEr BoYfrieNd.. LoOkEd sO faMiLaR.. wEnt tO sChOoL.. theN wE sAt dOwN aNd taLkEd! wEnT foR pRaCtiCe.. tHeN gO tHe sWeEt FrM chiN YaNg.. daMm bOrEd.. jIe pRaCticEd wItH jAcK aNd mE. hMm.. bReaK.. tHeN sTaRtEd sLaCkiNg.. tHeN wEnt aNd taLk taLk.. vErY fuN.. wEnT tHrU xiNg koNg.. tHeN sAw mEssaGe.. i MoOd sWiNg.. UnNo WaT gOt iNtO mE.. gAvE cHiN yaNg aLl mY sWeEtS.. haHa! tHeN havE tO sTaY baCk aNd dO sTuFfs.. sO bOrEd.. wEnT hoMe.. taLkEd wItH daryL oN tHe bUs.. hMm.. rEaChEd hoMe, oN tV tHeN oN coM.. cHaT aNd cHaT..
23 dEcEmbEr 04, uNlucKy
worE mY nEw sHoEs ToDaY, iT siMpLy sUcKs.. wEnT tO loT oNe FiRsT.. tHeN LiN aNd mE MeT LaLa oN tHe bUs iNsTeAd aT LoT oNe.. sAiD bYe tO hEr.. paId bilLs aNd hEaD tO oRcHaRd.. tHeN wEnT tO pAcIfiC pLaza.. WaNtEd tO bUy tHaT rIpcUrL baG.. bUt oNe dIrTy.. havE tO lEavE iT dOwN.. wEnT caUsEwaY poiNt.. tHeN wE saW tHe oP bAg.. sO niCe.. bUt oNly hAvE oNe.. sUcKs! tHeN wE waLkEd tiLl liKe WhaT.. sAt bUs bAcK tO bP.. tHeN waItEd FoR 19o aNd hEaD tO oRcHaRd aGaiN.. yEa, wE NuTs! haHa! bUt gOoD lAhX.. wAsTe tiMe aNd MoNeY.. bUt, wE wErE taLkiNg aBt LoTs oF sTuFf.. gEez, sO fuNnY.. tHeN wE wEnT tO aLl tHe 77 sTrEeT aNd fiNd sHirT, dUn HaVe! saW toMmY! hMm, FiNd hiM loOkiNg aT tHe bOtH oF uS liKe sO wEiRd.. tHeN waLkEd tiLl so LoNg.. gOt tO kNoW, tHe oP bAg wE jUsT saW DuN hAvE!! aHhHhHhH!! tHeN wE wErE sO mOodY.. siNcE FroM tHe oRcHaRd LiKe tHaT Le, sO fUcK uP! FiNaLly gOt tHe tHiNg i WaNtEd.. aLl tHaNks tO LiN! mUaCkS tO yOu! haHa! tHeN wEnT tO loT oNe aNd sEe sEe.. tHeN oMigOsH!! tHe bAg.. coOl!! tHeN bOugHt iT! tOo eXcItEd aT tHaT PoiNt.. wEnT hoMe aFtEr tHaT.. wAs wOrN oUt.. rEaChEd hoMe, hAvE diNnEr aNd wAtChEd tV.. No coM tO pLaY.. uNpaCk sTuFf aNd batHe.. coNtiNuEd wAtChiNg tV aNd sMs tiLl 12 pLuS.. wIshEd cHiN yaNg aNd KuN taT haPpY xMas eVe lE.. hAd a bAd sLeEp.. WaS feeLiNg uNhaPpY.. aLl tHis, i jUsT hAvE tO bLaMe mYseLf..
24 dEcEmbEr 04, TrYiNg tO haVe tHe FeeLiNg oF xMaS
haPpY x`MaS eVe!!
hMm.. gOtteN uP aNd 9oo aNd gOt a sMs iMmEdiaTeLy.. tHeN pRePaReD eVeryThiNg aNd aFtEr a wHiLe, gOt oUt aNd wEnT tO lRt sTaTioN aNd gOt mY xMaS giFt!! haHa! sO eagEr tO oPeN.. bUt CaNt cOs sWeaR lE.. hAiX.. tHeN gOt hoMe aNd gOt mY bAg.. hEaD tO tHe bUs sToP.. waItEd 2o MiNs FoR XiN hUi.. sIaNz aRx.. tHeN saT 184 tiLl ngEe aNn poLy.. oMg.. sO paI sEh.. ppL loOkiNg aT uS.. sO maNy gUys.. hMm, qUiTe haNdsoMe.. tHeN i LiKe sOrT oF faLl iN lovE wItH poLy LifE! gEez.. caNt waIt tO gEt iNsIdE poLy.. MaYbE i wiLl drOp tHe idEa oF gOiNg jC laHz.. cOs, i sUrE caNt maKe iT.. tHeN wE sEe tHe sTaLls.. duN haVe mY caR i waNt! tHeN wE feLt sO huNgrY!! saT lrT tiLl LoT oNe.. sAw MaRviN aNd siMiN.. tHeN wE hAvE LuNcH.. aFtEr tHaT, gO caUsEwaY.. pLayEd aRcAdE.. tHe caR rAciNg wAs FuN.. bUt gEttiNg lOusY aT iT.. tHeN pLaYeD tiLl sIao.. wEnT cD-raMa aNd gOt cD.. oMg.. taUfiK cD caN pRe-saLe.. bUt No MoNeY.. hAiX. tHeN bOugHt LiMe MagaziNe.. sO maNy nIcE sTuFfs!! haHa!! saT aT tHe MrT sTaTioN aNd tOk.. tHeN bOaRd tHe NeXt NeXt traiN.. wEnT hoMe.. tHeN gOt wIrElesS le!! oMg.. sO haPpY.. tHeN caMe oNliNe aNd cHaTtEd!! tRyiNg tO bE haPpY aNd havE tHe xMaS mOoD.. hMm, wIsHeD loTs oF pPl xMaS eVe.. i aM nuTs.. rEaD jiE`s bLoG.. hMm, sTaRtEd FeeLiNg sAd.. sHe`s sO hUrT.. hAiX.. woNdEr HoW tO maKe hEr FeeL bEtTeR..
LiFe iS liKe a coLouR bOoK.. iF yoU doNt cOloUr, iT wiLl aLwaYs bE bLaNk.. sO iF yoU gO aNd coLoUr iT, uR lifE wiLl bE vErY coLoUrFuL - cHiN yaNg