Monday, November 15, 2004 5:35 PM
13 NoVeMbEr 04, tHiNkiNg rEaL haRd
aFtEr bLogGiNg YeStErDaY, wEnT FoR a qUiCK sHoWeR.. tHeN CaMe oUt aNd pLaYeD yaNg qiN.. S'pOrE iDoL sTaRtEd!! VoTe FoR sLy!! I wAs sO eXcItEd yEt NeRvOuS.. tHeN sLy aNd daPhNe wAs tHe bOttoM tWo.. i NeArLy cRiEd oUt.. iF sLy rEaLli gEtS oUt, i dUnNo WaT i aM gOiNg tO dO MaN! oMg!! gUrMiT KePt oN saYiNg sLy NaMe.. MakiNg Me iN heLL!! aNd tHe rEsuLt wAs oUt!! sLy iS saFe!!!!!!!!!!!! oMg!!!!!! i sHoUtEd vErY lOuD!! daMm HaPpY.. gOt tO kNoW tHeY gG pS tMl.. haIz.. tUrNeD cHaNnEl aNd wAtChEd "tHe ChaMpioN" sO sWeEt eH! hMm.. HoW i WisH My LiFe wOuLd bE LiKe tHaT sHoW.. HaViNg a bOyFreN tO dePeNd oN! MuaCkS tO tHeM! bUT tHe sHoW gG tO fiNisH Le.. haIz.. wAtChEd sHoWbIz.. SuN yaN zI wAs FuNnY eH.. rEcEivEd sMs FrM aNtoN.. hE aSkEd Me gO sEntOsa tMl bUt rEjEcTed.. cOs CaN gEt taNneD eaSiLy.. No WaY!!! aNd i WasNt rEaLli iN a MoOd tO hAvE FuN.. oFg tHe tV aFtEr My sHoWs.. hEaR 933.. My MiNd sUddEnLy wEnT bAcK tO tHe PaSt.. aLl tHe MeMoRiEs wErE LiKe a FiLm pLAyiNg iN tHe MiNd oF MiNe.. wRoTe a sHoRt eNtRy iN mY daiRy.. i wAs WoNdEriNg wHy aLl tHe tHiNgS i WaNt tO haPpeN, haPpeNeD.. bUt tHe BIG prOb iS... wHy wAsNt iT tHe peRsoN i WaNt.. wHeRe iS hE? wiLl hE aPpeaR iN My LiFe? wiLl hE dO aNyThiNg? wiLL hE bE soMeoNe iMpT iN My LiFe? wiLl hE?!! i HaD beEn aSkiNg MyseLf aFtEr aLl tHeSe TiMe haD paSsEd, wErE tHeRe aNy cHaNgEs.. i CouLdNt fiNd aNy aNs.. haIz.. wHy? pLaYeD wItH paiNts tO mOvE My bRaiN oUt oF aLl tHosE tHiNkiNgs.. iN tHe eNd, i sTaiNeD My haNds.. aNd i dId MaNagEd tO mOvE oUt oF aLl tHoSe tHoUgHts.. wAsHed haNds.. tHe wHoLe hOusE wAs darK.. i aM tHe oNly oNe aWaKe aNd LoOkiNg oUtsIde, iT wAs dArK tOo.. i cHosE tO aVoiD aLl tHoSe tHiNgS haPpeNiNg To Me.. i eRaSeD tHe MsG tHaT hE seNt.. WhY caNt iT bE tHaT peRsoN.. aM i aSkiNg tOo MuCh tO gEt a LiTtLe bIt oF haPpiNeSs?? aM i?? i CaNt uNdErsTaNd wHy aRe tHe pPl oUt tHeRe, aBle tO gEt WaT tHeY waN.. bUt i CaNt? r U bEiNg uNfaIr tO mE??!! 3 aM - i wAs sTiLl awaKe.. hOpEd tO fiNd soMeoNe tO tOk tOo.. bUt toLd MyseLf i CaNt.. sToP tHiNkiNg aNd faLl tO sLeEp..
iN tHe MoRniNg, wOkE uP bYa sCaRy dReaM.. dReaMt tHaT mY sChoOl oRgaNisEd tHe sEc tWos tO gO tO tHiS pLaCe, a sCaRy oNe tO gO aNd cRaCk tHe MyStErY.. tHeN wE LiNeD uP iN cLaSsEs aNd gOt tHe PaPeR tO gO pLaY tHe gaMe.. tHeN i wAs iNsIde sOmEwHeRe.. aLl My FreNs wEnT oFf wItHoUt Me.. aNd i hEaRd tHaT tHe gOd wiLl bUrN pPl aLivE.. i dIdNt daRe tO gO oUt aLoNe.. tHeN soMe PpL caMe bAcK aNd i ToLd tHiS gUy tO heLp HiM coMpLeTe oNe oF tHe sEcTioN hE wAs LeFt.. i WeNt aLoNe.. aNd iT wAS daMm sCaRy.. cOs i CaNt sEe wHoM i aM tOkiNg tO.. iN tHe eNd, i CoMpLeTeD tHe gaMe.. aNd wEnT bacK.. sUddeNly, i wOke uP Le.. FiNd My dReaM sTuPiD.. wEnT tO wAsH uP aNd aTe bReaKfaSt.. oN tHe CoM.. tHeN LaTeR wAtcHeD tV.. gOt a gUy FrM s'PoRe sCi cEntRe coMe tO mY dOorSteP aNd bLa bLa.. bUt i NeVeR bUy tHe wAt cArD laHx.. aFtEr LiU xiNg hUa yUaN fiNisHed, wEnT tO baThe aNd oN CoM aGaiN.. pLaYeD gaMes TiLl sO FuN!! waHa.. tHeN tHe NeT sO sUcKy!! eEe.. yUvKs!! FiNd bLoG sKiNs cOs i HaTe My pReSeNt oNe.. iT sUx Le!! aFtEr hRs oF FiNdiNg oF sKiNs aNd dOiNg tHe bLog.. FiNaLly FouNd oNe tHaT wAs aLrIgHt.. oFfLiNe aNd cHaNgEd.. wEnt tO eXpO wItH paReNts.. cOs tHeRe gOt wAT sAle.. tHoUgHt wiLl gEt tO bUy LoTs oF cLotHeS.. bUt rEaChEd tHeRe wAs sHiT.. aNd iT sUx!! MaDe My MoOd tUrNeD baD.. iN tHe eNd, i oNly gOt oNe LiP gLosS.. wEnT tO aIpOrT aNd eAt diNnEr.. dUn haVe sWeNsEn Le!! dEcIdEd tOP eAt sOuP rEsTuRaNt.. tHeN i waLkEd tO tHe poLe tHeRe aNd sAw tHe sWeNsEn sIgN.. waHa.. i FouNd iT! tHeN aTe NeW dIsH.. daMm nIcE.. tOk aBt tHe hoiLdAy tRiP neXt yEaR.. heHe.. MaYbe caN sIt SIA eH.. hOpE rEaLli CaN MaN!! caNt waIt! tHeN oNe LaDy sErVeD uS dRiNks.. oNe oF tHe coKe LosT baLaNcE aNd soMe sPiLleD oN paPa paNts.. sHe kePt oN sAyiNg sOrRi.. aTe FiNisHeD Le, wEnT hoMe.. FULL!! hAd tHe urGe tO wOrK tHeRe MaN! aNd i dId FaSt eH.. FrM tMl nO nEed Le.. heHe.. wEnT tO roOm aNd FrM wiNdOw CouLd sEe FiRe.. baThE aNd wAtChEd tV tiLl 1230.. hAeR 933 aNd dId soMe cUttiNgS.. LiE oN tHe bEd aNd tOoK soMe tiMe tO faLl asLeEp..
14 & 15 NoVeMbEr 04, bLaNk
sElaMaT haRi RaYa!!!
WoKe uP bY paPa ToDaY!! aRgH.. cOs hE bRoUgHt XiN cHeN hErE tHeN sO nOisY.. wAsHeD uP aNd wAtChEd tV.. MuM wAs cLeAriNg tHe sHoE rAcK aNd i tHrEw LoTs oF sHoEs aWaY.. aNd rEaLisEd i HaVe aBt 4 paIrS of sHoEs eH.. oMg.. NeEd tO bUy.. tHeN aTe bReAkFasT.. wEnT FoR sHoWeR aFtEr tHe sHoW.. MeT LiN aNd paSsEd hEr tHe vIdEoCaM.. caMe hoMe aNd cLeaNeD YaNg QiN.. wAtChEd tV aNd aTe cRaCkeRs.. MuM FreN caMe.. tHeN i pLyEd YaNg QiN aFtEr tHeY wEnT oFf.. oN CoM.. FiNd sKiNs..cHaNgEd My sKiN aGaiN.. iTs nIcEr!! kOrX aNd paReNts CaMe HoMe Lo.. oFf CoM.. eAt aNd wAtchEd tV.. aCtUaLly kOrX nOt uSiNg CoM yEt.. hE gG oUt.. WtF! wEnT tO oN tHe CoM aGaiN aNd dId My TaGbOaRd.. FouNd wHeRe tO pUt.. i daMm goNg eH! haHa.. nIcE nIcE lE!! pLaYeD gaMe aNd oFfLiNe.. dRaNk dEsSeRt.. YuMmY! pLaYed Yq aNd heLpEd MuM MoPpEd tHe ToiLeT fLoOr dRy.. aFtEr wAtChiNg a bIt oF tV, wEnT tO cOoK diNneR.. bUt aCtUaLly iSnT Me wHo coOk.. If NoT oN oNe WaNna EaT eSp kOrX.. heLpEd hEr aNd tHeRe.. sO bUsY.. aTe diNnEr aNd tV tiMe aGaiN! batHe aNd oMg! gOt iNfeCtioN.. FcUk iT.. rEcEivEd a NigHt MsG.. hMm.. iTs LaMe baHx.. dEcIdEd tT tMl gG sWiMmiNg! yEs, FiNaLly! wEnT oUt aNd wAtChEd tHE sHoW "sWaN" bOtH LaDIeS tUrN oUt sO gOrgEoUs aNd LoOkEd sO mUcH dIfF.. wHeN oNe oF tHe LaDy FaMiLy MeMbErS caMe, sHe cRiEd.. aNd i dIdNt kNoW y i cRiEd tOo.. tOucHiNg hUh`? haHa.. sAw a sHoW oN tHe dOc dOiNg oPeRaTioN tO LiFt tHe KidS cLeFt LiPs.. tHeY aRe sO pOoR tHiNg.. haIz.. wE sHld bE coNsIdEr LuCkiLy MaN! 5566 sHoW dIdNt dO! sO ANGRY!! dID soMe sTuFf aNd LiGhTs oFf! hEaR 933.. cOuLdnT sLeEp.. bAcK hUrTs.. wAs tHiNkiNg wAt gEraLdiNe sAiD tO mE tHe oThEr DaY.. r tHeRe dOubTs`?? FaiLeD tO gIvE tHe LeTtEr tO Li PiNg wHeN i LaSt sAw hEr.. i WaNtEd tO gIvE,bUt wAs heLd bAcK..
iTs aLrEaDy NeXt DaY.. sTiLl aWaKe!! tOoK mE verI LoNg tO sLeEp.. gOt wOkeN uP bY MuM aT 8 pLuS.. tHoUgHt sHe sAiD 815 tHeN wAkE uP`? sIaNx! cHaNgEd aNd wAsH uP.. wEnT tO bB cDaNs.. pOoL sTiLl Nt oPeN.. hEaD FoR bReaKfasT.. wEnT bAcK.. sWaM 14 LaPs!! oMg.. sO tIrE aFtEr baThiNg.. No MoRe eNeRgy.. weNt hoMe.. eaT aNd wAtChEd tV.. pLAyEd coM aNd sAt oNe CoRneR aNd DaYdReaM.. FaLl aSleEp.. wOkE uP aNd FiNd suMtHiNg tO dO.. NTH!!!! BORED TO DEATH MAN!!!!! waItEd FoR paPa tO coMe hoME wItH mOs bUrGeR.. YuM.. tHeN caMe oNliNe aNd bLoG..